ah fuck!

skipped skool by accident. overslept. o.0 hehe, at least i managed to sleep kan? lols. didnt fet scoldin from mom, *smiles* she understands my skool life now, i think. and my skool life's S-U-C-K-S!!! i mean, bein in a church skool aint tht nice. its a fuckin workload there. and.... to vinnie, jeennie, jay shen, jen juan, and whosoever my pri skoolmates. IM SO SORRY, tht i couldnt go. gaahh! was supposed to be in ou by now. i dont mind takin the cab there and back home. normal d. BUT, im friggin scared tht the father might stay at home and wait for me till i get back. and get all those scolding. :/ and mayb a slap. i wanna be stubborn right at this min. and not care if i get in trouble. mom will let me out i supposed, since i did all her workloads, i should get a credit. i should just get dressed, call the cab and head to ou. meet old frens and just hav fun! ive not seen them for sooo long. =( i really miss you guys. my frens tht ive known for ermm.. 6 to 7 years. the ppl who helped me through some rough times, we had our fun and tough times together. but we managed to stay frens after all those years. *smiles* my heart's beating.. i wanna get out tht door there in front of me. takin my purple hand bag and just get some fresh air and freedom in ou. i rather hav the fun and happiness wit my frens than get another scoldin for skipping skool. ive got nothing at all to do there damnit! skool's concentratin on the performances! and im not even in, cause i wont be here at tht night! gahhh! i know if i get out now, msged mom and let her know where i'll be. but i know i wont be able to go out on weekends. and i friggin want to. why cant i go out on both or more days? im banned from tv. phone line's cut, i think. got fired from mom's restaurant, dont ask. now, gonna work for mom's high skool bf in this italian restaurant. and bein an art teacher to juniors. o.0 and mayb starbucks. hehe. why not? im there almost everyday. and the wireless there chunted. and ppl there knows me, i get discounts. hehehehe. you can ask voon, he been there wit me once. when we were there, got randoms sayin hi wit my name. randoms, the workers. lols, nyway, we went there to study together, tho we're in diff skool now, diff books and studies. but we did study, i think i interrupted him most of the time. bestfren, we still hav so much to catch up. all the juicy updates you've missed hehe. voon, i miss you so much, come over my hse for my food. :P you hav no idea how much i hate bein in skool. im like an alien there. i hav to pretend and put on a fake smile all the time. i know i hav my frens there. but i really cant stand bein there. bein there, its like, you see everyone, wit fake smiles on their faces. you think / they think they know you but they dont. its a happy skippy fake wonderland there. i wanna go a normal skool. government or private, i dont fuckin care! but pls, not this skool. im studyin so hard on my results, tryin to aim for straight a's and i got them, most of the time. i wanna show mumzy tht i can study. tht i can do my studies without lazyin. so tht she could trust me on this, but whtever i do in skool, its never enough for her. mumzy, i want you to know, i'll work hard, i'll get into college if its the last thing i do. i'll do whtever i can for you, just to see you smile. i love you mumzy, pls be yourself again. i miss the old you. xoxo

i love my mumzy

like mother like daughter [not much in common but owels] i LIKE the sound of tht. hehe. love you mumzy. today, *checks the time* whoops, yesterday i mean. hehee. was supposed to be goin over to aunt's house like every sunday. but wasnt feeling well. so stayed at home. [real sorry, callie] morning, the father came to pick up the rascals. he asked to pass over my phone, to check on something. so i did. *checks on my chocolate phone* NI THAI KUO FEN!!!! *sorry, my china very bad adi * o.0 thts wht he said. yelled with whtever chinese shitty words. my phone bill was 125.87. [voon, im not spoilted, im serious] almost got a slap but mom came down *smiles* my groundin is now extended to another week. WTFFF!!!!!!! mutterfuttercrapstickcheesepiefart!!!!! ming lin is leaving next friday! so is portia! had a big argument wit the father. mom felt sorry, took me out to mid valley. *smile like a lunatic* lols. i like the time i spent wit the mother. it was actually nice. :) for once. no arguments. teehee okay, tht was the updates for YESTERDAY's.. TODAY's, was surprisingly awesome! hehe asked to go over carissa's hse. but mom wouldnt allow. but my groundin is offically OVER!!!!! im un-grounded! woohooo! *jumps around wit a big smile* nyway. went to ikano wit mom. shopped ,came home. and the next thing i knew.... CARISSA & MING LIN & JOANNA & RONALD came to my hse. hehehe. i miss you guys. took them to my room to explore. and ronald told me to come out of the room... and guess wht? ADAM was there! he was hiding. omfg, he gav me a scared. [adam, dont ever scared me like tht again! =P] hehe. but owels. we walked to carissa's house after tht. had dinner, domino's pizza. had fun. then came home. lols. oh! ming lin and carissa were playin around. o.0 hehehehe ps. carissa, thanks for the pizza and droppin me back home :) tht was real sweet of you. tralalala *proffttt* xoxo

stabbed pt2 :/

FIRST OF ALL.

IVE GOT A NEW DARLING.

LAPTOP!

*smiles like a lunatic*

THANK YOUU, UNCLE MICHAEL [fyi, mom's ex bf] LOL and and and. KWAN KIT rmbrs me! lols. 5 years of frenship. i thought he moved to overseas or something like tht. but i was wrong, met him again in ou. =D he's also goin to WILLIAM ANGLISS INSTITUTE OF TAFE. YAY! *such a mouthfull* anyhoo. tag number 2 [Seven things I'm Experiencing Now] -my new laptop -growing up and gaining more experience thus sharpening and learning new skills in life. -frens leaving =( -new frens -new and more workload -more assignments [Seven Things I'm Thinking About Now] - skype with lin and adam :D - hang outs wit frens - bathing - movie i just watched (the butterfly effect) - my cousins coming down from melbourne soon! - did i mention assignments? - when will i be un-grounded? [Seven Things I'm Worrying About] - assignments - college - my grades - cleaning up my room b4 my groundin extends - my future - other than that i actually hav about nothing to worry atm =/ [Seven Things I'm Happy About] - new laptop! :D - my mom bein happy - my life as it is right now. perfect with all the wonderful flaws - having/making new friends and meeting old ones - the workload. imma part time workaholic - my hunnies=D - ppl who cheers me up/ understands me [Seven People I Treasure] - my mom - my bestfrens - my close frens - All my frens - my twin rascals - relatives/ cousins - GOD, my saviour [Seven Things I Always Touch or Come In Contact With] - my white chocolate phone. :D - keyboard + mouse - chocolate - toothbrush - my pillows - my artlines/ pencils/ sketchbook - my guitar [Seven Things I Want to Improve] - my drawing skills/ artworks/ grades - my cantonese. lols - my habit of lateness - attempts on saving up money - my quick-temperedness - my relations with the mother - my philosophical mind. training it. [Seven Things I'm Strong In] - drawing - dancing - simply being me - shopping - reaching my dreams/ goals in life - making friends? - caring and loving and protectin those whom i love. - self- actualization and my philosophical side of me [Seven Things I'm Weak In] - loving and caring too much - accepting my weak points - letting go of the past - bein in love - having a few handful of crushes? lols. - my fears. always am trying to push them aside and hide them. - forgetting. im still holdin on [Seven Things I Adore Eating] - dark chocolate!!!! - mom's food - italian food - western food - pancakes - korean food - anything deelicious =D [Seven Things I Adore Drinking] - white/ red wine - all sorts of liqour - kola tonik - strawberry yogurt drinks - those supplement beverages my mom has - strawberry tequila - soft drinks [Seven Things I Detest] - people who ask stupid questions especially when i am tired. sorry la. i will diu the hell out of ya wan. - cleaning my room - cockroaches!!! *runs away* - gruesome movies - cruelties to animals - stuck being lazy :x - people who are fake/ attention seekers/ and those who suck up to you coz you are popular/ and ESPECIALLY guys who keeps wanting your attention coz of your physical looks. either you just go die with your artificial intelligence of a -10 or just jump off the building la [Seven Things I Cannot Live Without] - chocolate - my mother - money - internet/ pc - my hunnies - food/water - my mind [Seven Things I Fear to Show] - my feelings - my fears and my worries - my doubts on my life/ future - my weakness - my core - everything bout me. im self-cousious [Seven Things I'll Never Want to Talk About] 1-7 : cannot tell! my lips are sealed *covers mouth with hands* [Seven Things I Will Want to Do] - assignments - my collections =P - cd collections - accept life as it is - finish up my list of "things to do in this lifetime" - forgive - sleep [Seven Things I Will Never Play Around When/With] 1-7 : nature and the inevitable [Seven Things I Wonder About] - when will he make the first move/ attempt to talk to me again? - will i achieve my straight A's? - my future - how would things be like if it goes another way round - the choices ive made - minor to major changes in life - will i not cry every night just to know tht he's here? [Seven Questions I Hope My Friends Would Respond To] 1-7 : not tellin. =P [Seven Things (or People) I Would Love to See] - my mom happy all the time - my life going smoothly the way i want it to be - my artworks up in galleries - straight A's - exciting stuff around the world - my hunnies - leaving this crapstick place [Seven People I Wanna Tag] - dada foo - nick yu - shammie - shawn - whoever reads this note: -to my dearest cousin callie. dont think too much bout it. everything will be fine soon. it takes time. -and to all malays, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI xoxo

stabbed :/ pt 1

IVE BEEN STABBED. ive not been browsin through ppl's blog lately. but i was dead bored today, so i browsed mandy's blog. gahh.. woman! how many times do i need to be stabbed. owel. fyi. FACEBOOK is in. FRIENDSTER is gay as usual. crapppdinkers! im GROUNDED! FCUKTARDINGSHITT! - so.. i couldnt go out with carissa and ming lin - i couldnt attend ming lin's pool/ buffet/ sleepover party! - NO goin to ou. tag number 1: INSTRUCTION : Bold the statements that are true to you. Italicize the statements that you WISH are true. Leave the fibs alone. Then, stab 3 people to do the same test... 1) I miss somebody right now. 2) I do not watch tv these days. [banned] 3) I wear glasses or contact lenses. 4) I love to play video games. 5) I have tried marijuana. 6) I have been in a threesome. [hehe, i wonder] 7) I believe honesty is usually the best policy. 8) I have changed mentally over the last year. 9) I curse. 10) I’m totally smart. 11) I’ve broken someone’s bones. 12) I’m paranoid sometimes. 13) I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. 14) I need money right now. 15) I love sushi. 16) I talk really, really fast. [sometimes] 17) I have long hair. 18) I have lost money in Las Vegas. 19) I have at least one sibling. 20) I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. 21) I couldn’t survive without Caller ID. 22) I like the way I look. 23) I am usually pessimistic. 24) I have a lot of mood swings. 25) I have a hidden talent. 26) I’m always hyper. 27) I have a lot of friends. 28) I have pecked someone of the same sex. [whoops!] 29) I enjoy talking on the phone. 30) I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. 31) I love to shop. 32) Enjoy window shopping. 33) I would rather shop than eat. 34) I don’t hate anyone. 35) I’m a pretty good dancer. 36) I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. 37) I have a cell phone. 38) I believe in God. 39) I am an adrenaline junkie. =P 40) I watch MTV on a daily basis. 41) I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. 42) I’ve rejected someone before. 43) I want to have children in the future. 44) I have changed a diaper before. :/ 45) I’ve called the cops on a friend before. 46) I’m not allergic to anything. 47) I have a lot to learn. 48) I’m shy around members of the opposite sex. 49) I have made a move on a friends significant other or crush in the past. 50) I have tried alcohol before. 51) I own the South Park movie. 52) I would die for my best friend. 53) I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. 54) I have used my sexuality to advance my career. 55) I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. 56) Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. [ROFL] 57) I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it. 58) I am happy at this moment! 59) I’m obsessed with girls/guys. 60) I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met. 61) I study for tests most of the time. 62) I am comfortable with who I am right now. 63) I have more than just my ears pierced. 64) I walk barefoot wherever I can. 65) I have jumped off a bridge. 66) I love sea turtles. 67) I spend ridiculous money on makeup. 68) Plan on achieving a major goal & dream. 69) I’m proficient in an musical instrument. 70) I hate office jobs. 71) I love sci-fi movies. 72) I think water rules. 73) I went college out of state. 74) I like sausages. 75) I love kisses. 76) I fall for the worst people. 77) I adore bright colours. 78) I can’t live without black eyeliner. 79) I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing. 80) I usually like covers better than originals. 81) I can pick up things with my toes. 82) I can whistle. 83) I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake’s slither. 84) I have ridden/owned a horse. 85) I still have every journal I’ve written in. 86) I can’t stick to a diet. 87) I talk in my sleep. 88) I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. 89) I have jazz in my blood. 90) Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time. 91) I wear a toe ring. 92) I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with. 93) I am a caffeine junkie. 94) I cosplay or know what cosplaying is. 95) I have been to over 15 conventions. 96) I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better. 97) I'm an artist. 98) I only clean my room when necessary. 99) I like a person of the same sex. [megan foxx. id turn bi for her. o.0] 100) I love being happy. i tagged... 1. ada foo 2. nick yu 3. whoever reads this xoxo

te quiero [ i love you ]

[learned this from guitar class today. oo! im so burried to this song atm. teehee =D ]

[thanks wei jean, for this pict :D ] <3

EVERYWHERE - michelle branch

Turn it inside out so I can see The part of you that's drifting over me And when I wake you're never there But when I sleep you're everywhere You're everywhere .

Just tell me how I got this far Just tell me why you're here and who you are 'Cause every time I look you're never there And every time I sleep you're always there

. 'Cause you're everywhere to me And when I close my eyes it's you I see You're everything I know that makes me believe I'm not alone I'm not alone

. I recognize the way you make me feel It's hard to think that you might not be real I sense it now, the water's getting deep I try to wash the pain away from me Away from me

. 'Cause you're everywhere to me And when I close my eyes it's you I see You're everything I know that makes me believe I'm not alone I'm not alone

. I am not alone Whoa, oh, oooh, oh

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And when I touch your hand It's then I understand The beauty that's within It's now that we begin You always light my way I hope there never comes a day No matter where I go I always feel you so

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'Cause you're everywhere to me And when I close my eyes it's you I see You're everything I know that makes me believe I'm not alone

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'Cause you're everywhere to me And when I catch my breath it's you I breathe You're everything I know that makes me believe I'm not alone

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You're in everyone I see So tell me Do you see me?

tralalala -hope you like the song too ;)

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ohh! and before i forget. watch this vid. its a MUST. well, only if you want to be enetertained. lols.

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ps. kee's in the vid. lols http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u2DZ5rFfoLM

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xoxo

countdown unleased :)

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY HUNNIES! to my dearest ming lin and carissa. our countdown has ended. =D woot! you hav no idea how happy i am for this day to finally come to an end. *smilin like a lunatic* lols owel. since our plan didnt really worked. i mean, ming lin and i hung out, but carissa was missing. *sighs* but........... we still hav monday. and many many more days to go out and gila ourselves. =P bwahahaha. note: 1. ming lin & portia & eric, dont leave 2. my bday *teehee* 3. tht dress in caractere, must get it, somehow *sighs* 4. studies, im serious 5. melbourneeeeeeeee =D

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once again, thanks joshua khoo for uploading this pict for me. *smiles*

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tralalala

*proofftt*

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xoxo

this is where i draw the line

here's to you. the one whom i once knew.

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.BROKEN. the broken clock is a comfort, it let's me sleep tonight, maybe it can start tomorrow from steeling all my time, i am here, still waiting though i still hav my doubts, i am damaged at the best, like you've already figured out im falling apart, im barely breathing with a broken heart, thts still beating in the pain there is healing in your name, i find meaning, so im holding on barely holding on to you, the broken locks were a warning you got inside my head, tried my best to be guarded im an open book instead i still see your reflection, inside my eyes tht are looking for purpose, tht's still looking for a life hanging on another day just to see wht, you will throw my way and im hanging on to the words you said you said tht i will, i'll be okay the broken light on the freeway, left me here alone i may hav lost my way now but i havent forgotten my way home - lifehouse [ive finally found the cd :) ] ps. - kee, get well soon. if there's anything, im here :) - abel, thanks. xoxo

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aite. this is my 2nd blog of the day. im superrr bored. just came back from tuition. but today was kinda diff, interesting. my works wasnt taught by the teacher. instead. yuin's bro [sorry, i terlupa your name again :x] taught me human bio. and i was havin wrong thoughts. i bursted out laughin when he explained wht something something contraption thing. he was like. the balls must be squeak till its fit to into the tube. and when its released. the pressure will somehow be shown, somewht like tht. bwahhahaha

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and my accounts was taught by ken loong, he couldnt teach me properly tho. cause i was interrupting him when i was interrupted by the calls from some ppl. == owel. after tht, he drove me back to the mother's office. o.0 thank youuu ;)

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hmm.. im so confused. as i said i need a change. for my hair. im thinkin of this one. can? can? tell me wht you think bout it. lol.

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anyhoo.

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just to let you all know, justin timberlake and beyonce's concert is CANCELLED. szinitcrabstick! wth... nyway. thanks kee and alfred for tht information. ;)

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xoxo- is tired

happy buttday ya'll ;)

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY, LUM U JIN! ;)

3 years or frenship and still goin strong ;) thanks bro. ilu

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*smiles*

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always there for me. taught me how to face my own prob and not run from them. my brother. my fren. the monkey who's a troublemaker, yet he makes sure i dont do anything tht'll get myself into one. =P we were closer last year tho. haihh. wht to do. im not in kdu nymore. =(

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HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY, DARYL SEOW! ;)

hope to see you again this hols ;)

HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY, RACHAEL LING! ;)

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY, SARAH! ;)

have a great birthday guys. i wish you all the best of luck & in everything else. :]

tralalala

xoxo

lets play doctor, whts your line? ;)

circle circle dot dot. =P gosh, i need to list down the things i really need to properly concentrate on. shammie and i were very bad today. =P talkin non stop bout naughty stuff. all kinds btw. o.0 haha. she showed me picts of this hot guy she went out wit last week. *drool* i rufuse to say how hot he is. haha hmm.. my bestfren aka. princess jeennie, evil twin sister, superstar. and i might be plannin to hav a sweet sixteen next year. =D we're sharin the party. since we're only a month apart. why not? [jin, i hope you'll be here at tht time] and erm.. erm... i'll be superrr busy than usual. for these few months. b4 next year. ... why..? 1. need to plan the sweet sixteen bday/ dance party ;) 2. spend my friggin hours i hav wit ppl who's leavin me/ here. a. ming lin b. kar mern c. jeffrey lau d. gavin tan e. katherine f. shammie (maybe) g. rebecca h. nicky (maybe) i. & ppl whom if i forgot to list down here 3. assignments. assignments. assignments. 4. parties/ hangouts. hopefully hols. 5. house in melbourne ;) 6. clean the house. moving out soon. 7. frens whom ive been neglecting, needa speed time with them. 8. work. in mom's restaurant == 9. did i mentioned assignments? 10. and whtever shit i hav to do. crappp. supposed to be studyin.. and im doin this shit here. == oo. i need a change. i cant stand my boring lifestyle. i wanna get my hair cut. hmm. short. ;) above the shoulder. still thinkin bout it tho. cause ive never had my hair cut to above the shoulders b4. :/ long hair my whole life. fuck the world. but its the only planet with chocolates. i didnt managed to buy ujin's shirt. means. i didnt managed to finish his bday present. im so screwed. :/ his bday's tmoro. ps. kee, if youre reading this. dont forget the tickets. =P haha pls and thank youu. xoxo