Friday, May 30, 2008

same mistake

by James Blunt

So while I'm turning in my sheets
And once again I cannot sleep
Walk out the door and up the street
Look at the stars beneath my feet
Remember rights that I did wrong
So here I go

Hello, hello

There is no place I cannot go
My mind is muddy but
My heart is heavy does it show
I lose the track that loses me
So here I go

Uhuh uhuh uhuh

And so I sent some men to fight
And one came back at dead of night
Said he'd seen my enemy
Said he looked just like me
So I set out to cut myself
And here I go

Uhuh uhuh uhuh

I'm not calling for a second chance
I'm screaming at the top of my voice
Give me reason, but don't give me choice
Cause I'll just make the same mistake again

Uhuh uhuh uhuh

And maybe someday we will face
And maybe talk but not just speak
Dont buy the promises cause
There are no promises I keep
And my reflection troubles me
So here I go

Uhuh uhuh uhuh

I'm not calling for a second chance
I'm screaming at the top of my voice
Give me reason, but don't give me choice
Cause I'll just make the same mistake

I'm not calling for a second chance
I'm screaming at the top of my voice
Give me reason, but don't give me choice
Cause I'll just make the same mistake again

Uhuh uhuh uhuh

Uhuh uhuh uhuh
So while I'm turning in my sheets
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
And once again I cannot sleep
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Walk out the door and up the street
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Look at the stars
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Look at the stars falling down
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
And I wonder where
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Did I go wrong?


xoxo

this is sad ...

i dont have time for anything at all right now .

i miss my blog . i miss my darlingsss . i miss my life . it just sucks sooo much now .
everything just get worse as day goes by .

keeeweii korr,
thanks for always having my back no matter what . though i dont get to talk to you anymore . but you always find a way to bring a little piece of happiness to my life, some how . i really have no idea what i'll do without you . you know .. you remind me soo much of sean . you both aint afraid to hurt me by telling me the truth , and you both really see life as it is . and most of all , you both are always there for me . i miss him still ..
and im really sorry that ive not been myself lately , or for ever so long . you understand me , you know how i am . but i just cant take this anymore . even tho things sucks , i'll keep your words with me korr .

sweetie pie ; ming lin
darlinggggg ..! when are you coming back arr ? hee . i cant wait ! gimme a call or whatever . i missh you soo much girl . ive got soo much to tell you . and plus , my bitchiness makes me grumpy even more now . i need you to calm me down again, hahahhahaa . stay strong hunn, much loves .

my bunnie ; abel khor
hunney . dont be sad aite . im always here for you . no matter what . i just wish i could repay you as what you did for me when i was down . when i was in trouble , bla bla bla ... you know the rest . lol .. my bunnie should always smile . and stay happy as you used to . thats why i love you soo much hunn . rmbr .. even when you were busy with your other frens, and i was prolly afraid that night cause of something that happened . you took your time to talk to me, making me feel aite . and i hope i could do the same for you .

my bro ; nick yu
ive got nothing to say .. but thanks a million for everything . for being there for me . im soo sorry that i had to call you late at night after troubles . or such . whatever it is . thanks alot for listening . and yeah , youre the only one that could ever stand me bein my whole crazy self . heh . and i still think its fun to burn stuff :3 hahahha .


anyhoo .. ive bought an ipod !!! hee ;D ;D ;D
but i dont really know how to use it . stupid right ?
im just afraid i might kill it . lol ...


xoxo

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

happy brithday ppl .

this post's for all the birthday ppl of this month, lol .

2nd may ; Jackie Lee .


HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY!
sorry that i couldnt make it to your party .


4th may ; Charles .


HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY!


7th may ; my sweet, Luca James Overton Wright .

heh
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY? or issit 20th? bleh .


9th may ; my darlin sweetie pie , MING LIN!


HAPPY SWEET 16!!
take care my dear, cant wait for you to be back here .


17th may ; Philip Lim


HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!


20th may ; Leland Tan


HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!
thanks for all your help .


23rd may ; Bryan Leong


HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!



no pictures uploaded , cause i dont have the time to do so . damnit .
and erm.. i'll reply my cbox msgs when im back again .

and dada foo . i cant wait for you to be back in msia! heh

everyone else, take care aite .



xoxo

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

notice

hey lovelies .

sorry that ive not been coming online or whatsoever lately .
been busy . and mainly, ive got no internet connection anymore .
so i wont be online often now .

and ive gotta come to starbucks if i wanna come online . wont make any diff tho, cause im there all the time ;D heh

past few days...
got to hang out with stephiie for a couple of hours in starbucks . after that, we had a light dinner at a steamboat restaurant near by .
it was nice hangin with ya steph ;D hope to see you soon!

and meet up with johann after sooo long . he's been busy working . lol

erm.. nothing much happened . its either im stuck at home, or out doin some more crazy stuff :3 heh

xoxo

Friday, May 2, 2008

its so close

so near to june .



without you, i swore myself to solitude .



forever more , i think im gettin worst with this .

im hopeless .
and i hate that youre not here .



xoxo

Thursday, May 1, 2008

black and blue beats my heart

this poem is for you, korr <3

i need to get out,
this place makes me sick .
hopeless, empty and worthless .

i cant .
i cannot stay here .

of where the words hit,
like boxing gloves filled with thick fists .
merciless, heavy, fists .
black and blue beats my heart .

i cant stay here .
i dont want to .
i hope, i wont have to stay .
not even at all .

my heart swells with black,
bile poison from tongue of my warden .
poison carefully concocted artfully laced,
hatefully administered,
its strength never expires .

i cant stay here .
i cant .
and i wont .


* p.s. , this has gotta be my worst poem .

xoxo