WHAT THE FUCK .

WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO MY BLOG POSTS?!?!!!!!

MARCUS, I REALLY HOPE YOU'VE GOT A GOOD EXPLAINATION FOR THIS!

ALL MY POSTS ARE MIXED UP TOGETHER! I NOW HAVE TO CHANGE ALL MY FUCKING POSTS BACK, MORE OVER WITH FUCKIN HTML CODES!!
DID I NOT REMINDED YOU THAT MY BLOG ISNT LIKE THE REST? IT ONLY EXISTS WITH HTML CODEs AND NOT LIKE THE EASY COLOR PICKER OR WHATEVER THERE IS .

THIS IS JUST FUCKED UP . THANKS SO MUCH . YOU JUST MADE MY DAY .


xoxo

these mixed emotions

there's another song inside my head
my mind goes over everything you've said
and everything you haven't,
just let it go .
obsession consumes me, please let me know
all that i want is for you to want me
. tell me you need me or my dreams will haunt me,
these mixed emotions are mocking and taunting
and my mind keeps on turning around...

xoxo

to my dearest Mika ;D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE!! ;D youre now, hmm.. 19? x) heh
isnt she pretty? ;D

we're bitches but we love each other <3
goodness, isnt she just so adorable? haha
you know, you should smile more often .
having our hearts broken is just not worth it =x
i miss our old times .



someone's who has almost anything, everything in common with me . well, most of anything ;P

hmmm... we both are... * addicted to assholes * bitches * fools xD * chocoholic ( at least i think she is, lol ) * insomniac sisters, heh * in love with the same phone model * stubborn / hard headed * mixed ;D * craving / wanting the same old thing * && many more


gosh, i hate the fact that youre over there in Hawaii, while im stuck here .
hurry up, move up here . loads of food, and erm yeah, alcohol and chocolateeee! and strawberries, and champagne . hahaha xD

besides, adrian and johan are here too . and erm.. hydo lee? oh yeah, her too, she's in pj every week or so ;) i think .
and who knows, mayb shihui might visit us from japan onces in awhile ;P

and lastly...


ALL THE BEST IN EVERYTHING, I MISS YOU ;D


xoxo

tagged by vinnie :D

Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions . then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all. 1. Who is your all-time inspiration? Lara Jade ;D 2. Have you lost your first kiss? ermm.. yesh? 3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why? - keeeweii, cause he knows me best . - shev, she'll have all the rubbish talk i need . heh - yuin, she rocks my world, why not? haha 4. Where is the place that you want to go the most? Pariss babeh ;D 5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be? thats a dream tht'll never come true . 6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain? do you? 7. What are you afraid to lose the most now? what do you think? 8. If you win $1 million, what would you do? travel ard the world, mini cooper, SHOPPPING! etc.. whatever there is in mind . 9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? i try not to . 10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you. fun, lovable, and caring :D 11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half? patience, laughter, and and... *blank* .___. 12. Which type of person do you hate the most? backstabbers, who doesnt? 13. What is your ambition? dance choreographer . 14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet? i rather they point out to me . 15. Are you a shopaholic or not? dont think so xD 16. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you awesome . 17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change? my insecurity . 18. What's the last shocking thing you've seen or heard? my fuck bunnie's bleeding forehead =S abel's an idiot . 19. Dream prom date? heh ;) 20. Is life worth it? not really, to me at least . i tag... only these 3 ppl, not 8 . most of them adi done this . 1. nicky 2. esther 3. samantha xoxo

look what ronnie made for me ;P

Ronnie went to Mexico City for hols, and he made this for me . heh, thanks Ronnie ;D xoxo

i can never let go of you

i love you . xoxo

silence, emptiness and confusion

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl It feeds on loneliness and creates a void Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture A teenager is stricken and destroyed There is no sound of laughter or happiness here The little one has thrown in the towel today Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul It is futile to hope and dream and pray Emptiness builds a home in this woman In this girl, this child where hollows have bred A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes And eats away at every connecting thread Confusion feeds like a savage inside her, Leaving nothing considered worthy remains Destined to walk through life less ordinary Alone, exiled, different and disdained. xoxo

fucktards, pls leave me alone .

would you get a life! or better yet, just leave me alone! i dont have time for any of your bullshits . why issit that im the bitch when i did nothing to you at all? want him? you can fuckin have him . i dont need a retard like the both of you in my life . its been more than 2 years ever since we got together . he left me at first just bcause you tricked him into falling in love with you, and yesh, its mainly his fault too . god damnit, we were together then, and you flirted and whatsoever you did with him . but pls be my guest, continue whatever play role you wanna do with him . months after that, we got back, why? not the fact that you two were playin behind my back, but i still had feelings for him then . yesh, i was stupid enough to take him back . i felt for all his lies . and the reason why he wanted to get back? he realized that he lost someone who's always been there for him, love him, trust him and comfort him . someone who's been up for the best for him . and he lost her still . cause i realized he was just playin with me all along, i left him . me, a slut? you called me that just cause ive moved on from him and started goin out with other guys? geez girl, i thought you wanted to have him . and one more thing Jasmine, pls dont ever pretend like we were ever friends . Edwin, you fucking manwhore . ive moved on from you . what else do you want from me? ive got nothing to give you . goodnes, stop your fake charm, smooth talks or whatsoever with me . we were best friends when we were much younger, but ppl change, and certainly did you . so plss, i beg of you, pls leave me alone . and this is the fool . ignore the guy covered by the white smiley face . thts Jasmine and the other fucktard Jasmine, if only you knew how much i was hurt by him. guys, thanks for knowin you . xoxo

acoustic soothes my soul, heh

i can play this song ;D Oooh Oooh Oooh Oooh Oooh Oooh Oooh Oooh *Verse 1 Colby O'Donis I peeped you on the phone Just showin' off ya stones And notice that that pinky ring is right enough baby I know you're not alone But I could just be wrong The way them fellas houndin' and sizin' you up baby *Hook And I like the way you take advantage of every man you love I see, I seem to know your game girl But I don't mind if ya come and play ya thug just don't talk too much I see, I see it so you don't have to say a word Yeah those guys wanna come treat ya right Cause you're sweeter than apple pie Everything that you want you got Girl you know that you need to stop Most beautiful thing in sight Always takin' on the spotlight Always in the club lookin hot Girl you know that you need to stop *Chorus Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh) Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh) Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh) Girl you know that you need to stop Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh) Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh) Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh) Girl you know that you need to stop *Verse 2 Colby O'Donis Girl I can tell you want something to love That's why you hold on to everything that pass you by Can't resist girl one can't lie Now tell if you are here for me Or everybody watchin' you shake from left to right The way you move got me hypnotized *Hook The way you take advantage of every man you love I see, I seem to know your game girl But I don't mind if ya come and play ya thug just don't talk too much I see, I see it so you don't have to say a word Yeah those guys wanna come treat ya right Cause you're sweeter than apple pie Everything that you want you got Girl you know that you need to stop Most beautiful thing in sight Always takin' on the spotlight Always in the club lookin hot Girl you know that you need to stop *Chorus Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh) Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh) Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh) Girl you know that you need to stop Always talkin' bout what you got (Oooh) Always talkin' bout what you got (Oooh) Always talkin' bout what you got (Oooh) Girl you know that you need to stop *Verse 3 Akon Our eyes away from you girl when you get on the floor and do what you do And errbody wanna come back to that bod and kind of remind myself I'm like you Be sure that type drive a man crazy and snatch him away from his lady No matter how hard the man hold back he'll end up callin' you baby And they never really know what to do once you expose that thang you do Ya had him crawlin' on hands and knees and ya find a way to get him out that cheese And why ya thinkin' that you the only dude she off in the mall livin' off of you Lettin' errbody know she got you but now you feel like a fool *Hook Yeah those guys wanna come treat ya right Cause you're sweeter than apple pie Everything that you want you got Girl you know that you need to stop Most beautiful thing in sight Always takin' on the spotlight Always in the club lookin hot Girl you know that you need to stop *Chorus Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh) Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh) Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh) Girl you know that you need to stop Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh) Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh) Always talkin' bout what you got (Eh) Girl you know that you need to stop xoxo

JabbaWockeez rocks!!!

here's a few vids of them, you should definitely watch all of them! ;D and last, this is just soooo adorable! xoxo

crushed .

i can never live the same way again . i hate bein defeated upon solitude . my drawing . tears is what you gave me . random . i miss you touch . more than words can say . you're all i want, all i need, my everything . you're everything i ever wanted, im the last thing you need . you hurt me badly, but i love you already for every little thing you've done . for every little moment of your presences, for every comfort you gave, for everything we shared . xoxo

love me, love me not . you got me heart broken

what do you do when the one that can make you stop crying, is the one who made you cry ? sometimes letting go is so hard, but its easier than holding onto something that isnt there

every minute of my everyday . xoxo

my heart hurts .

we werent together, but i loved him already for everything he's done only my dearest, shevie and yuin would understand how i feel . please excuse me if i had my bad moods on you, Nick . xoxo

tears is what you gave me

i was bored, so took a pict of this candle . the week he went away, when i was thinkin bout him, made me cried, so drew this out . and its true, people always leave . and he'll never come back . i miss him xoxo

without you, its never easy to move on

she's afraid . she's lookin down . she's lost . she doesnt know what to do . confused . just plain afraid to move . scared of bein hurt again - keeeweii its all coming back to me, and yet again, i cry for him... keee, why issit so hard to move on? i cant seem to forget, not that particular moment . i love him, and always will . he's not coming back, cause he never left . but why do i feel like as if its all my fault? i didnt want him to leave . i wanted him to stay . i still feel his presences . every day . xoxo

アビー

why do you pretend like i dont matter to you when you're all that matters to me? you're all i want . you're all i need . you're everything . and together, it'll feel so much better. xoxo

my sweetie's back! ;D

yay!! guess who's finally back in malaysia . you got it right.. its my darling, sweeetest, sweetie pie . *jumps with joy like a lunatic* bwahahaha xD TAN MING LIN ;D thats her next to her lil sister . isnt she pretty? hehe and thats her in between the lovely Joanna and Carissa :) glad you're back sweetness! now.... there's soooo much more ive gotta tell you . plus, SHOPPING!! hehe and movies, and food, and oh! CHOCOLATES and gossips, lol.. and and... it'll just be the both of us, me and you ;D hahaha xoxo - is very happy indeed , lols

everything about you, makes me smile ツ

i knew the first time we met , you would be a little hard to forget . " why cant i breathe whenever i think about you? why cant i speak whenever i talk about you? " - Liz Phair sometimes i wonder if life is really worth it ; then i look at your smile and i know it is . i think ive fallen for you all i want is for one guy , to prove to me that they're not all the same . && i think that one guy is you . <3 xoxo - i know its a little too soon, but i'll wait .

so intoxicated ; rhythm makes me high ♪♫

aha, tht's right. Music is everything to me, well.. apart from chocolate, dancing and *ahem* ;D its basically something i need every moment of my life . so yeah.. no music, no live . Music is the drug of my choice . also, apart from chocolate, dancing and *ahem*, yeah, that too.. It leaves me intoxicated, and the feeling of wanting more, every minute of my everyday . What ever genre i listen to, mostly rock tho, or trance or whatsoever, its rhythm makes me high . does it affect you too? yessh, nyuu, maybee? lol and so far, for rock only.. my favorite band would be : 1. A Perfect Circle 2. Incubus 3. Three Days Grace 4. Dashboard Confessional 5. Anberlin 6. Sugarcult 7. Faber Drive 8. Paramore 9. Jimmy Eat World 10. and many many more.. (such as Amber Pacific, Avenged Sevenfold, Alkaline Trio, yada yada... ) haha i dont know, and dont ask me why, but i just felt like listing up my favorite bands here . lol... will upload some more picts soon ;D xoxo

2 more days!

oh yesh... did i not mentioned? its 2 friggin more days till my dearest sweetie pie's back! well.... i should probably count for like, another 3 or 4 more days.. knowin the fact that she'll be goin back to hometoen in johor first. lol and gosh, almost forgot! i wanna welcome my dearest Katherine in the fuck group! haha . yesh, the - FRIENDS U CAN KEEP - group, with founder by Marcus ;D i would lurrveee to brag bout this fuck group, its really interesting with what they normally do in there (im included, lol) . but im not allowed to talk much bout it, unless its on a private convo . ( dumb rule? well, sue Marcus! ;D ) nyways... sweetie, if youre reading this . pls sms me when you get back in pj, kay? xoxo

i now officially declare...

that my one and only abel khor is no longer my sweetest dummy . but he is now, my sweetest fuck bunnie *wink* ;P bwahahahaha xD abel sweetie, just letting you know that i luurve you oh so much . and you'll always be MINE ;D and, hmmm... erm... 5 more friggin days till sweetie pie comes home! ;D hehe, cant wait!! xoxo

pick up lines... anyone interested?

here's a few... lol 1) When I saw you from across the room, I passed out cold and hit my head on the floor...so I'm going to need your name and number for insurance reasons. 2) (Guy) Giant polar bear... (Girl: What?) (Guy) It broke the ice. 3) Excuse me... do you speak Klingon? 4) Hi, the voices in my head told me to come over and talk to you. 5) I dropped a tear in the ocean, the day I find it is the day I'll stop loving you 6) If a star fell for every time i thought of you, the sky would be empty. 7) If I had a nickel for every time I've seen a woman as beautiful as you, I'd have 5 cents. 8) Guy: I'm invisible. Girl : Really?? Guy: Can you see me? Girl: Yes. Guy: How about tomorrow night? 9) I've been noticing you not noticing me. 10) So, are you going to give me your phone number, or am I going to have to stalk you? 11) Guy: This is incredible! This is the first time that this has ever happened to us. Girl: What? Guy: Each one of my 27 personalities found you cute! 12) Excuse me, but I may be lost... Can you give me directions to wherever you're going? 13) He: You look like my third wife. She: Oh, how many time have you been married? He: Twice. 14) Hi, I just wanted to give you the satisfaction of turning me down; go ahead say no. LMAO :D xoxo

im back!!! ;D

oh well, was back on tuesday, but net was fucked up again . so.. there wasnt much i could do bout it. church camp was... not what i expected it to be... its actually, way better . tbh, its real fun! ;D and tiring of course . i love the flying fox, high rope course, ponding activities, but not much of the obsticle course tho . and my goodness! my sun burnt is the worst ever! *hides* lol met new frens ;D got to know the ones ive been close to a lil more . and to know God a lil more too . so yeah.. basically that was much of it . and today... went out with Jinnikins again, brought the fuck nuggets along . watched the Spiderwick's chronicles (thumbs up!) . then b4 meetin up with Sean . Jinnikins and i bumped to this retarded old hag . he still gives me the creeps, so aint gonna talk bout the it . lol and erm, thanks Yuin & Leland :) its very much appreciated! oh, a reminder to the loser, Marcus .

i dont suffer from insanity . i enjoy every minute of it

;D and... 7 more friggin days till i see my sweetie pie! hehe ;D xoxo

geez, imma die living in the same roof as him

gosh, i dont want to live in with him . he's a psycho maniac . why? well, mom wants to stay by herself now, she said she's stressed . soo... i have to move in with the father soon . i dont want to, i dont want to, i dont want to! he's gonna kill me . Ming Lin! come back quick! and dont ever leave me . lols

- party like a rockstar, look like a moviestar, play like an allstar, fuck like a pornstar -

haha, got this from vivian's pm ;P AND.... THE MOST AMAZING NEWS EVER.... FOR ME AT LEAST... lol hallelujah!! i got my phone back!!! ;D *jumps for joy like a lunatic!* haha, thanks mom ;D xoxo

my heart's on cocaine... yet again

why do you pretend like i don't matter to you when you're all that matters to me? You could be my unintended choice to live my life extended. You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions. You could be the one i'll always love . xoxo

i miss him still, always and forever

been missin him alot more lately . i know he's around looking down upon me from where he is, but i miss him terribly . and i still cant seem to accept the fact tht he's not here . i miss his face, his laughs, his presences, everything . its been 9 months now, and im still tangled . he's always been there for me . and always will, somehow . you meant so much

You meant so much to all of us You were special and that's no lie You brightened up the darkest day And the cloudiest sky Your smile alone warmed hearts Your laugh was like music to hear I would give absolutely anything To have you well and standing near Not a second passes When you're not on our minds Your love we will never forget The hurt will ease in time Many tears I have seen and cried They have all poured out like rain I know that you are happy now And no longer in any pain.

a fren who comforts and console, all gone . its just not the same anymore . i'll wait for the day till i'll see you again xoxo

wont be around for a few days

yesh, and i'll be away from 9th till 11th march . geez, to a church camp >< never thought i'll be goin for any of these church things, but i miss goin on camps, so yeah.. but at least it should be fun, as Jinnikins, Kathrine and Nicky, will be there too ;D *swt* i just cant believe that the two fuck nuggets will be goin for the camp too . oh great, they'll probably report to mom of what more trouble i'll be doin next . owels... hopefully it'll do something good there . and i'll have to be sober from alcoholic drinks for a few days, lol xoxo

i miss my phone *sobs*

and yesh, i'll promise not to brag bout how useless my phone was . i mean, its... trash . but my music's in it, and i cant live without music! *pouts* and and, i like my phone when i was able to call my hunnies . *smacks head* im desperate for a P-H-O-N-E! if only im rich enough to buy a new one, but... im saving my money for the new generation ipod! only a few hundred left! or mayb i could be save more to buy those music phone eh? *damn* i need it so i could contact my lovelies who'll be back here in malaysia soon . needing to say, my bestfren, MING LIN! 14 more days, babes ;D cant wait! so as the horny fucker, Sean Lim, who'll be visiting here from SG. and oh puhlesse, i need my phone back or at least a phone, MIKA's bday's on the 31st march! how am i supposed to contact her without a phone? she's hardly online . goddamnit, she lives in hawaii! geez... argh...! help me ;( - was so desperate that she traded her laptop for a day in exchange for her bro's phone, tsk tsk - xoxo

oral pleasure . muahahaha xD

... you put the long, hard shaft ... ... into your hot, waiting mouth ... ... you play with it around your tongue ... ... in and out, in and out ... ... you feel it building up inside you ... ... you go faster, and faster ... ... until the white creamy liquid fills your mouth ... ... you spit, and its all over ... . . . . . . . . . . . . take care of your teeth! roflmao! BWHAHAHAHA x) tsktsk, got this from marcus (my ultimate loser ;P ) xoxo

hell yeah! woots!

im allowed to go out again! for the start of, on thursday i mean ;D not sure bout goin out more often, but hopefully it'll happen cause mom allowed me to hang around with Jinnikins, in ou on thursday after kdu sport's day *smiles* oh, that reminds me . she's allowed to skip skool on thursday too, to accompany me to kdu . lol so.... im also hoping to be getting my phone back soon ;D much greater news! ready for it? my sweetie pie Ming Lin will be back in malaysia, in 17 more days! woots! been missing her every single day ;p hahaha and i think i can start calling Mika soon . geez, damn sure its hard to be in contact with someone who's in hawaii . *come online more often!* and with Portia too, who's in NZ *babe, hurry back!* OH! who's goin for the sunburst music festival? let me know if anyone interested, i'll try to get free tickets for ya'll again *wink* no promises tho . xoxo

to my dearest Yuin ;D

thanks for the help hunn, really appreciate it . love your insults to the spammers, lol youre still the best ever ;D xoxo

pain ; three days grace

im in love with three days grace *heart melting* lol and to keee, sorry couldnt managed to get a full track of this song . except for its acoutsic, tho i think you'll pretty much like it, i guess Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all You're sick of feeling numb You're not the only one I'll take you by the hand And I'll show you a world that you can understand This life is filled with hurt When happiness doesn't work Trust me and take my hand When the lights go out you will understand Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Anger and agony Are better than misery Trust me I've got a plan When the lights go off you will understand Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing Rather feel pain I know (I know I know I know I know) That you're wounded You know (You know you know you know you know) That I'm here to save you You know (You know you know you know you know) I'm always here for you I know (I know I know I know I know) That you'll thank me later Pain, without love Pain, can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Rather feel pain than nothing at all Rather feel pain xoxo

never too late ; three days grace

they are and always will be, one of my favorite rock band ;D and this is definitely one of my fav songs from them ;] This world will never be What I expected And if I don't belong Who would have guessed it I will not leave alone Everything that I own To make you feel like it's not too late It's never too late Even if I say It'll be alright Still I hear you say You want to end your life Now and again we try To just stay alive Maybe we'll turn it all around 'Cause it's not too late It's never too late No one will ever see This side reflected And if there's something wrong Who would have guessed it And I have left alone Everything that I own To make you feel like It's not too late It's never too late Even if I say It'll be alright Still I hear you say You want to end your life Now and again we try To just stay alive Maybe we'll turn it all around 'Cause it's not too late It's never too late The world we knew Won't come back The time we've lost Can't get back The life we had Won't be ours again This world will never be What I expected And if I don't belong Even if I say It'll be alright Still I hear you say You want to end your life Now and again we try To just stay alive Maybe we'll turn it all around 'Cause it's not too late It's never too late Maybe we'll turn it all around 'Cause it's not too late It's never too late (It's never too late) It's not too late It's never too late xoxo

S . L . U . T `` is not what you think it is...

Sweet Little Unforgettable Thing - a cinematic vision ensued like the holiest dream xoxo

last night

was my most fun and worse night ever . all i can say is... its was FUN when... 1 . Yuin was there in ou, finally get to hang out with her 2 . saw Jimmy again xD 3 . met new frens its was a NIGHTMARE when... 1 . Yuin couldnt stay for the white party in Mardi Gras 2 . Jimmy isnt who i thought he was 3 . the police came by to check on me and Jason basically, it was fun before there was police involved in last night's situation. and yesh, last night was certainly like an extreme movie for Jason and i . all because the fuckin neighbor called the police, sayin that there was a car in front of my house with high engine, making loads of noise. fuck lah then after the police came, mom got out, got scolded and slaps. argh.. and i dont think Jason will ever have a good impression from my mom again *sobs* my punishment : 1 . both my phone was taken away 2 . im grounded for life 3 . im not allowed to go out again 4 . i lost my mom's trust 5 . i lost my freedom 6 . i cant see Jason (only if he visits me during tuition hour :s ) 7 . i cant visit kdu anymore (which was supposed to happen this thursday for their sports events) arrrrgghhhh! what to do now le . i dont have my phone, how to wake up in the morning for skool? i cant talk on the phone anymore . i wanna see my darls : Voon hung, Yuin, U-jin, Carissa, Denise, etc. . i miss them soooo much! and too, wanna see everyone else i know in kdu life is sooo fucked up! and a reminder : pls do not call or msg my phone, thanks -unless you wanna get fucked up by mom, she aint nice i assure you- xoxo