woots, im going to Beijing!

listening to :

I'm Yours by The Script

yeaps, that's right :)
im goin to Beijing and i'll be away for a week . tho, to me, going to Beijing not only feels like im going to rehab . but its also more like an escape trip . probably to clear things out from my mind, get myself occupied, relax and maybe just have fun eating snow!! i just want to get away and be happy again . being able to get away from this place is all i want right now, and thats a good thing cause i feel like i really need that .
those of you who thinks i dont seem happy enough to be goin to Beijing . dont get me wrong, i am excited to be going there . but just not too excited. get what i mean?
anyways, imma miss you guys so much!!


my lovelies.. aka, my ex puay chai 2 classmates .
im not 100% sure that i'll be there for the gathering on 22nd, i'll let you guys know la! cause i'll be back the day before, i think . and the gathering is from 10am till 12am!
you guys are killing me!!!
BUT.. im dying to see you all!! so i'll try my best to be there kays .


P,S. PLS DO NOT CALL ME, YOU MAY SMS ME, I MIGHT OR MIGHT NOT REPLY, BUT PLS DONT CALL . UNLESS I CALL YOU ;p


HAPPY HOLIDAYS PPL! TAKE CARE!

xoxo

didnt my love mean anything to you?

listening to :
Always You by Amber Pacific

it is bitter, the feeling that i feel every night
it makes me want to cry so badly that i will fall asleep
have you ever felt me in the times that ive felt you?
in the deepest silence i want to drown and lie down


its such a hurt i felt only this time
the time that you've broken my heart
the time that you've broken your promises
the time that you've destroyed my dreams
to be with you


and now im lying all alone, i cant stand still
this feeling makes me weak every now and then
i tried to collect the parts and re-arrange it again
but no,
there's nothing like the taste of a broken heart

xoxo

tagged by vinnie, my sweet candy :D

while i was browsing through Joey's blog, i saw my name so i had to read everything slowly cause it gave me a shock when i re'd that "our affair is over" xD hahahaha


How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your blog).
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.___12___.
Loves;
-Your name-

P/S: You are so lifeless, ___13___, -The name of the person that tagged you-.

OKAY, SO HERE GOES..

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

13. What is your favorite activities when hanging out with mates?
Gathering for drinks - Ugly pig
Foosball - Silly duck
Shopping - French kisser
Dulging for food - Cranky banana
Movies - Smelly armpits
Snacks - Horny wolf
Snooker - Tiny nipples
Bowling - Sexy grandmother
Outdoor activities - Vain pot
Having a long talk - Nose plucker
Taking pictures - Dumb bitch
Other - Burn yourself

_____________________________________

Dear da_foO.

I don't really know how to tell you this, but the mafia wants you. I think I realized it when last year with Paris Hilton and I saw you pour syrup on my best friend. I'm sure you're open enough to understand that Extreme Home Makeover sucks. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your photo as a memory. You should also know that I never openly mocked to ruin the second world war. In pain .

Loves;
-Abbie Lyann-

P/S: You are so lifeless, french kisser, -Vinnie-.

OMGGGG WEY!! HAHAHHAAAH xD


&& i tagg
- Amira
- Andrea
- Esther Loong
- Felicia
- Jayshen
- Juniiebell
- Kai Yi
- Samantha Claire
- Vivian
- Yuin

xoxo

tagged by esther loong =p

listening to :
Love Remains The Same by Gavin Rossdale

A. Attached or Single?
- single


B. Best Friend?
- Mika Pantaleo


C. Cake or pie?
- cake, cause its yummy xD


D. Day of choice?
- saturday


E. Essential item?
- ipod


F. Favorite colour?
- purrrrpleee :D


G. Gummy bears or worms?
- gummy bears!


H. Hometown?
- malaysia


I. Favorite indulgence?
- HAAGEN DAAZ's chocolate chip :)


J. January or July?
- January (CNY = GREENS! =p)


K. Kids?
- in the future, probably


L. Life isn’t complete without?
- fuck this question


M. Marriage date?
- i have no friggin idea!


N. Number of brothers and sisters?
- two younger bros


O. Oranges or Apples?
- i dislike both . but apple would do


P. Phobias?
- heights >_<


Q. Quotes?
- "Behind Every Bitch Is A Guy Who Made Her That Way"


R. Reasons to smile?
- frens, music, chocolate


S. Season of choice?
- autumn


T. Tag 5 people
- Amira
- Min Hui
- Samantha Claire
- Yuin
- Yun Xin


U. Unknown fact about me?
- im secretly attracted to Daisy Lowe =p


V. Vegetable?
- not all, but some .


W. Worst habit?
- staying up for days o_O


X. X-ray or Ultrasound?
- neither . done those two and i hated it cause it friggin scares me!


Y. Your favorite type of food?
- thai and korean food :)


Z. Zodiac sign?
- aquarius ~

xoxo

spm takers

GOOD LUCK
&&
ALL THE BEST!!

:)

xoxo

da_foO, happy birthday!

listening to :
The Red Carpet Grave by Marilyn Manson

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!

my lovely cousin, not to worry..
youre still twenTEEN!
youre not old, as of, - yet -
bwahahahaha xD

glad you're finally back from melb :)
missed you too much!

xxx

taste the blood of my tears ; he's waiting for that day i stab myself

listening to:
Just A Car Crash Away by Marilyn Manson

ive been away for awhile..
so okay, im back blogging .
not sure why i even bother having a blog


anyways, please ignore the previous post my fren Portia blogged bout
she was just dramatically angry at that moment
( but hunn, thank you so much for bein my shoulder to cry on )
besides, behind every bitch is a guy who made her that way
and that goes for me..


thanks a bunch for being there for me :
vivian, for every friggin moment that has happened . through thick and thin, even from the beginning .
steph, im real sorry that i got you really worried and that i didnt inform you of anything that has been goin on lately . im sorry .
and anyone else who's been there too .


sammy and vinnie, i'll do your tags when im free kay?

xxx

Miss Portia Ng here

So since my babe refuses to update anything these couple of days, i guess i'll just post something here..


First Of All. I am so srry that i have not been there for you, but i am now. Im always here to cheer you up NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES IVE FAILED.


Secondly, to this "person",
HAVE YOU NO BALLS TO TALK TO HER FACE TO FACE!?! YOURE A SERIOUS IDIOT AND SHE'S EVEN MORE AN IDIOT (no offence babe) FOR NOT HAVING A SWEET REVENGE ON YOU. MHMM, LET ME SEE, YOU COULD MAYBE GO TO JAIL FOR THE LEAST OF YOUR PROBLEMS.
NOT ONLY WERE YOU A BIG JERK ASS TO HER, BUT SERIOUSLY, WHAT DID SHE DO TO MAKE YOU HURT HER THIS BAD?
NOT FOR A MINUTES DID I THINK THAT YOU DESERVED HER AT ALL, NOT ONE BIT! YOURE A FUCKING LOSER AND ONE DAY SOMEONE WILL BREAK YOUR HEART LIKE YOU BROKE HERS.
THOUGH I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT SHE SAW IN YOU, BUT IM HOPING SHE'LL MOVE ON SOON. FOR HER SAKE, ALL THAT SHE'S BEEN THROUGH, SHE DESERVES ALL THE HAPPINESS SHE NEEDS.
SHE'S THE SWEETEST THING, AND ANYONE WILL BE THE HAPPIEST GUY TO BE WITH HER. IVE KNOWN HER TOO LONG AND TOO WELL AND I'LL KNOW IF SOMETHING ISNT RIGHT. YES, SHE'S NOT IN LOVE WITH YOU BUT SHE LOVES YOU.
DO YOU EVEN FUCKING KNOW HOW HARD IT WAS FOR HER TO LET ANYONE IN? DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH SHE TRUSTED YOU? DO YOU FUCKING KNOW HOW HARD IT WAS FOR HER TO LOVE SOMEONE AGAIN? DO YOU EVEN FUCKING CARE? DID YOU REALLY LOVED HER? OR WAS IT ALL A BEAUTIFUL LIE TO GET INTO HER PANTS??
WHATEVER IT WAS, SHE BLAMED IT ALL ON HERSELF. I THINK ITS STUPID WHEN SHE IS SUPPOSED TO PUT ALL HER HATE ON YOU. BUT SHE DOESNT HATE YOU AT ALL, INSTEAD SHE'S WILLING TO FORGIVE, WILLING TO LEAVE YOU ALONE FOR SHE LOVES YOU. SHE WANTS YOU TO BE HAPPY. HOW ON EARTH CAN ANYONE FIND SOMEONE LIKE HER? I RELLY DONT UNDERSTAND WHY WOULD SHE WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY.
SHE NEEDS AN EXPLANATION. SHE JUST WANTED TO TALK. BUT WHY? WHY DID YOU LEAVE HER? BECAUSE SHE CARE? BECAUSE SHE WAS INSECURE? BECAUSE SHE DOESNT WANT TO MISS A CHANCE WITH YOU? BECAUSE SHE FELT SAFE BEING WITH YOU? BECAUSE SHE WAS AFRAID? BECAUSE SHE WAS HAPPY? BECAUSE SHE CHOOSED YOU? BECAUSE SHE FUCKING LOVES YOU? I WONDER WHY.
JUST ONCE, SHE WANTED TO LOVE SOMEONE AND NOT HAVE HER HEART HURT IN THE END.
SHE GAVE UP HER PAST, SHE CHOOSED YOU. BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT BEING WITH YOU WOULD BE WORTH IT. YOU TOOK CARE OF HER, TOUGHT HER, YOU WERE THERE FOR HER.
BUT WHAT HAPPENDED? WHY DID YOU END IT ALL? YOU SAID YOU LOVED HER, BUT I GUESSED YOU HAD YOUR FINGERS CROSSED. TALK TO HER, EXPLAIN, SHE'LL UNDERSTAND THEN MAYBE SHE'LL STOP CRYING FOR ALL THAT HAS HAPPENED. BUT THIS IS BULLSHIT I SAY, SHE'S CRYING FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESNT APPRECIATE HER.
YOU HURT HER SO BAD WHEN ALL SHE EVER DID WAS LOVE YOU.
IF YOU ACTUALLY REALLY LOVED HER, YOU WOULDNT HURT HER. IF YOU ACTUALLY CARED, YOU'LL BE THERE FOR HER.

im going insane

listening to :

Crashed The Wedding by BUSTED

im outta my mind

seriously

xoxo

happy birthday rascals :)

listening to :

One Step At A Time by Jordin Sparks

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY
RASCALS

no matter how big of a pain you guys are ..
you'll always be my brothers

xoxo