Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Miss Portia Ng here

So since my babe refuses to update anything these couple of days, i guess i'll just post something here..


First Of All. I am so srry that i have not been there for you, but i am now. Im always here to cheer you up NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES IVE FAILED.


Secondly, to this "person",
HAVE YOU NO BALLS TO TALK TO HER FACE TO FACE!?! YOURE A SERIOUS IDIOT AND SHE'S EVEN MORE AN IDIOT (no offence babe) FOR NOT HAVING A SWEET REVENGE ON YOU. MHMM, LET ME SEE, YOU COULD MAYBE GO TO JAIL FOR THE LEAST OF YOUR PROBLEMS.
NOT ONLY WERE YOU A BIG JERK ASS TO HER, BUT SERIOUSLY, WHAT DID SHE DO TO MAKE YOU HURT HER THIS BAD?
NOT FOR A MINUTES DID I THINK THAT YOU DESERVED HER AT ALL, NOT ONE BIT! YOURE A FUCKING LOSER AND ONE DAY SOMEONE WILL BREAK YOUR HEART LIKE YOU BROKE HERS.
THOUGH I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT SHE SAW IN YOU, BUT IM HOPING SHE'LL MOVE ON SOON. FOR HER SAKE, ALL THAT SHE'S BEEN THROUGH, SHE DESERVES ALL THE HAPPINESS SHE NEEDS.
SHE'S THE SWEETEST THING, AND ANYONE WILL BE THE HAPPIEST GUY TO BE WITH HER. IVE KNOWN HER TOO LONG AND TOO WELL AND I'LL KNOW IF SOMETHING ISNT RIGHT. YES, SHE'S NOT IN LOVE WITH YOU BUT SHE LOVES YOU.
DO YOU EVEN FUCKING KNOW HOW HARD IT WAS FOR HER TO LET ANYONE IN? DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH SHE TRUSTED YOU? DO YOU FUCKING KNOW HOW HARD IT WAS FOR HER TO LOVE SOMEONE AGAIN? DO YOU EVEN FUCKING CARE? DID YOU REALLY LOVED HER? OR WAS IT ALL A BEAUTIFUL LIE TO GET INTO HER PANTS??
WHATEVER IT WAS, SHE BLAMED IT ALL ON HERSELF. I THINK ITS STUPID WHEN SHE IS SUPPOSED TO PUT ALL HER HATE ON YOU. BUT SHE DOESNT HATE YOU AT ALL, INSTEAD SHE'S WILLING TO FORGIVE, WILLING TO LEAVE YOU ALONE FOR SHE LOVES YOU. SHE WANTS YOU TO BE HAPPY. HOW ON EARTH CAN ANYONE FIND SOMEONE LIKE HER? I RELLY DONT UNDERSTAND WHY WOULD SHE WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY.
SHE NEEDS AN EXPLANATION. SHE JUST WANTED TO TALK. BUT WHY? WHY DID YOU LEAVE HER? BECAUSE SHE CARE? BECAUSE SHE WAS INSECURE? BECAUSE SHE DOESNT WANT TO MISS A CHANCE WITH YOU? BECAUSE SHE FELT SAFE BEING WITH YOU? BECAUSE SHE WAS AFRAID? BECAUSE SHE WAS HAPPY? BECAUSE SHE CHOOSED YOU? BECAUSE SHE FUCKING LOVES YOU? I WONDER WHY.
JUST ONCE, SHE WANTED TO LOVE SOMEONE AND NOT HAVE HER HEART HURT IN THE END.
SHE GAVE UP HER PAST, SHE CHOOSED YOU. BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT BEING WITH YOU WOULD BE WORTH IT. YOU TOOK CARE OF HER, TOUGHT HER, YOU WERE THERE FOR HER.
BUT WHAT HAPPENDED? WHY DID YOU END IT ALL? YOU SAID YOU LOVED HER, BUT I GUESSED YOU HAD YOUR FINGERS CROSSED. TALK TO HER, EXPLAIN, SHE'LL UNDERSTAND THEN MAYBE SHE'LL STOP CRYING FOR ALL THAT HAS HAPPENED. BUT THIS IS BULLSHIT I SAY, SHE'S CRYING FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESNT APPRECIATE HER.
YOU HURT HER SO BAD WHEN ALL SHE EVER DID WAS LOVE YOU.
IF YOU ACTUALLY REALLY LOVED HER, YOU WOULDNT HURT HER. IF YOU ACTUALLY CARED, YOU'LL BE THERE FOR HER.



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