fallen through ; lyrics

FALLEN THROUGH - skye sweetnam ;) i do what he says but i end up falling off the edge i dont know wht to do never seems to end up being true seeps in underneath the door sinks in and stains the floor i dont know wht to feel takes so long for these wounds to heal tell me its not really real chorus : fallen through why did i fall for you? fallin' for all the lies alabis tht you said left me holding on by the last thread stop, stare and watch me burn oneday, it'll be your turn cant fool me, i can see all the things tht you dont want me to see you threw my heart away tht's the price tht i paid i know its never fair promised me tht you'd always be there but you never really cared chorus x 3 xoxo

dedication to kee ;)

[this dedication is to kee. my friend. my brother. ;) ]


kee, my friend. thanks for your understandin, your comfort. and your presence. thanks for bein there. i'll never let you down.

kee, youre the only person who understood how i felt, after everything ive had to go through. tho i seem alright and put on a fake smile, you know tht im not alright. and you never once judged me. thanks.

i know the probs i hav may seem a lil too much for me to handle. but you were there to make me stronger. to hav faith tht i'll know wht to do. to solve the prob. to move on. to know tht he's always with me.

"she's afraid. she's looking down. she's lost. she doesn't know what to do. confused. just plain afraid to move. scared of being hurt again."


you know me well. even tho its just through a pict. you know how i was feelin. the sadness i hav in me. you made my day. ;) i know you hav your own prob to solve. but i'll do anything for you to be happy as wht you did for me. thanks for your dedication. the song was awesome. tho its not really my type. but it has a lil rock to it. =D and you know tht i love it.

i'll be stronger with each day tht i cry. i know he wants me to be happy. i know tht he's in a better place. i know tht he's always here. still here. to be with me i know he never meant to leave me. i'll try not to look at things with grief. he's not coming back, cause he never left. he has always been here. with me.

tho its sometimes easy to forgive for mistakes, but its hard to forget. and you make tht possible. im not forgettin everything, just rmbrin the good times. the reason why im still hanging on, cause i know he's with me. always and forever. i'll hang in there, for myself, for a life ahead, for him, and for you.

im sorry if ive hurt you in anyway. it was never my intention to. may god bless you along your road to a happier life. your faith's strong. you know wht to do. youre the talented and skilled bro i'll ever know. =P sometimes we just wanna not move on. but somehow, we hav to. whtever happens, life still goes on.

the one who owns 2 piano, 5 guitar and tht's popular. =P thanks for your wishes. thanks for bein my fren. thanks for listenin. and thanks for tellin my the truth. and thank you, beyond words. you take good care of yourself aite? im always here for you too ;)



xoxo

fcukingtardingweird.

i need to get outta this shitty place. i hate bein here. i want to be THERE. i feel bitchy. very bitchy. ps. shevie, sounds familiar? you should know. ;) joshua khoo is here. like yesterday and few days before. to help me fix the comp. he did, well, halfway. ended up playin games. lol i lost lifehouse's new album, where the heck could it be? dude : a camel's private asset. nicky, i NEED your ipod. pls. im bored. as usual. enough said. xoxo- is missin someone badly.

questions of the heart.

THE heart is a fragile thing indeed. One gentle prick may cause it to bleed. If it is subjected to hurt again and again. Could it possibly endure this intolerable pain? Is there no antidote, no potent cure? Can a heart that is tainted ever be made pure? Can past grievances be forgotten and completely erased? Can the scars of the past disappear without a trace? If a heart has been wounded, is there any relief? Is there any escape from fear, sorrow and grief? If one has been subjected to such ruthless betrayal, Can he still trust that love will prevail? A heart that lies bruised and broken, From painful words that have been carelessly spoken. Shattered into innumerable pieces, All scattered about in a million places. But believe these words, for they are true. O, wretched heart, there is hope yet for you. For though all else may eventually passed away, True love will presevere at the end of the day. written by- marianne liaw thanks for the poem, girl. . xoxo

abstract.

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY YUIN ;)

& HAPPY 16th BUTTDAY JAKE ;)

love you both <3

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[got these from ndesignstudio.com, i *hearts* abstracts]

love all the picts. so as my background. flow babe. ;)

and im out.

xoxo

pictures of hsm2

milan. meet her in the ladies. she needed eye liner and i borrwed, tho i didnt know who she was. till she came on stage.

jaclyn victor and natalie from hitz jaclyn told us a very un-needed story. she wants babies. mark my word. i say she's pregnant. or... mayb not.

my neck's a lil to the side.

before the premiere

two of the other cast for msia hsm2

aite. thts all.

and im off.

xoxo

jokes.

[got this from nickaay. in msn] There is this farm in a village, the farmer got 3 roosters/cocks (rooster/chicken/ayams). All this 3 cocks have different kind of character. Their character are listed below : 1. Normal Cock 2. Retarded Cock 3. Gay Cock The farmer really love all his cocks and he even gave them names. He call them : 1. Normal Cock - Cock-a-Doodle-Dooo !!! 2. Retarded Cock - Doodle-Cock-a-Dooo !!! Try and guess... The Farmer Named the Gay Cock : 3. Gay Cock - Any-Cock-Will-Doooo!!! xD ------------------------------ Last time I used to work as pump attendant at Shell petrol station at this Cheras branch. The boss is very kiam siap, thats why i left to join Petronas. But anyway got one time sales dropped alot at the Shell petrol station and the kiamsiap boss is doing this promotion to increase sales, he make a big banner with the words : nick?™©®™-*SDF* тнe вαss мαкes υs flỵ says: "WIN FREE SEX IF YOU PUT FULL TANK!!" I also curious bout the contest then i asked my kiamsiap ex boss, he told me Kiamsiap : Very simple one la! if got customer come put full tank u ask him come see me. Me : Then if they ask see u for what how i answer boss ? Kiamsiap : U tell them see me to play game la, if win ledi got free sex! Me : then if they ask me what game and how to play how i answer boss ? Kiamsiap : ok i explain to you, After that got one customer his name is AhSeng, he see the promo/contest and fast fast put full tank of petrol. I then asked him to see my boss la. Kiamsiap : Ahseng choose a number form 1 to 9. If you guessed correctly you will win free sex. Ahseng : 6! Kiamsiap : Aiyah!!! you miss sikit oni laaa, the number is 7!! soli lar no sex for you this time try again ok ? Ahseng : diuuu !!!! so close!!! *2 days later Ahseng come again this time he bring his frend Ahbeng along.* Ahseng : Alo! kasi full tank ok? Me : taikor come to try your luck again ar ? Ahseng : Ya la this time i bring my frend alsong too, hes my lucky star I think this time i can win leh! Me : ok taukeh! just go into the opis to see my boss and Good luck! *start filling the tank* Ahseng go into the opis together with Ahbeng to see Kiamsiap boss* Ahseng : Hi! its me again and this time i'm gonna win! Kiamsiap : oh hi! welcome! you know the rules right ? go ahead guess the number. Ahseng : 7!! Kiamsiap : aiyoo so close again! the answer is 6!! soliler try again next time! Ahseng : DIUUU!!!! ARGGHHH!!! AhSeng and Ahbeng got into the car and left. on the way home Ahseng asked Ahbeng* AhSeng : Mahai i think the kiamsiap petrol station owner is a con man la, where can win like this ? diuuu !!! Ahbeng : Eh dont say lidat! he very honest one ok ? I got prove his contest is real one. AhSeng : What prove ? you won before ar ? Ahbeng : No lar not me . MY WIFE WON TWICE LAST WEEK!!! HAHAHA. female only bah. xoxo

surveys, pt 2

got this from shum's blog. ;)

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Abbie!

1. Abbie is born white; her pink feathers are caused by pigments in her typical diet of shrimp!
2. Abbie can't sweat.
3. Abbie, from the movie of the same name, had green blood.
4. While sleeping, fifteen percent of men snore, and ten percent grind their abbie!
5. Grapes explode if you put them inside abbie.
6. Abbieolatry is the mindless worship of abbie!
7. Abbie was first discovered by Alexander the Great in India, and introduced to Europe on his return!
8. If the annual Australian abbie crop was laid end to end, it would stretch around the world seven times!
9. The Vikings believed that the Northern lights were caused by abbie as she rode out to collect warriors slain in battle.
10. The risk of being struck by abbie is one occurence every 9,300 years.

I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

... xoxo

surveys, pt 1

COLOURFUL SURVEY Four Things Not Many People Know About Me: 1. im always horny. :x well, not always . but most of the time. i blame the hormones. xD 2. imma bitch. only if you get on my nerves or when you want me to. 3. im generally nice. and playful. i can be bad too. IM IN BETWEEN. 4. I dislike try hards. wannabe whtever shit. Four Places I Ever Lived: 1. ss2, pj 2. bandar utama 3. dotty 4. dunzo Four TV Shows I Love To Watch: 1. grey’s anatomy 2. one tree hill 3. heroes 4. rebelde [spanish show] Four Places I've Been On Vacation: 1. thailand 2. johor bahru 3. langkawi 4. penang Four Of My Most Hated Foods: 1. er.. those chinese sausages 2. oyster [used to love em'] 3. fish [some lah] 4. hmm.. i dunno Four People I want To Meet: 1. sexy hot guys xD 2. my long lost friends. 3. my partners in crime 4. my buddies *ahem* ahhahaha Four Person I Want To Tag Are: 1. you 2. you 3. you 4. and you. and now i shall shuttap. and skip along to do whtever shit i was doing. ------------------------------------------------------- Write a blog with six weird facts/things/habits about yourself. -imma shy person. :/ normally with ppl i just met. but once i get to know them pretty well. i hit “nails to their head” LOL.

-i dont hav any good relations with my parents. and brothers. [but. workin on it with my mom ;)]... good kan...?

-i like to be known as just EURASION. and not chinese-eurasion. i love chinese customs and all but i just dont really like the fact of havin to look like a friggin pure chinese when i hav bloods of euros. i hate it, esp when randoms comes to you and ask... you pure chinese arrh? [fuckinhailat!]

-imma master in crapalogy. full of nonsenses wan. lol. nahh. not sure lah. but i do hav a lil memory lost. at some times. but i can still rmbr those wonderful and horrible memories. :x

-i hav a big appetite. really. BUT. ive got this high metabolism thingy goin on in me. so... tht means. i cannot grow. =( i want at least something. i want COCONUTS. bwahhaha. [but to dada jeje. not fishball on chopsticks kay]

-I tends to BLUSH real easily. i dont like it lah. everytime see hot guy *blush*. laugh *blush* scare *blush. isshhh! friggin irritation shit. :x

...... -Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4

.…nations were drawn up. These rules were known as the league… [hist book]

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-Stretch your arm out as far as you can.

wave your hand high like you just dont care!

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-What is the last thing you watched on tv?

ermm. jurassic park. ROARR..

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-Without looking, guess what time is it?

i say its dark and bright. it must be noon. so, it should be 4 or 5.

......

-Now look at the clock. what is the actual time?

7:18pm. Okay okay wht.

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-With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

I hear the wind. And the cars passing by shiftly. Tsk tsk. Later accident padam muka.

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-When did you last step outside?

few hours ago.

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-what were you doing?

came back from school.

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-Before you started this survey, what did you look at?

friendster. playlists. books. and chocolate ;)

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-What are you wearing now?

boxers and long sleeve. Berrr.

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-Did you dream last night?

i didn’t get to sleep last night.

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-When did you last laugh?

today. when kat COMBed my hair with her licked fork. [imma get you for tht, kat]

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-What is on the walls of the room you are in?

my batik paintings.

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-Seen anything weird lately?

er.. is there anything not weird?

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-What is the last film you saw?

premonition. Ooo. [dada foo. you gotta watch this. shockin but confusin but nice. ] =D

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-If you become a multi-millionaire overnight, what will you buy?

CLOTHES. SHOES. DRESSES. PORCHE. IPOD. oh-so-many.

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-Tell me something about you i don't know

hmm. Psssst!.. >( “)(“ )( “)(“ )<.. yea? So can i..>( “)(“ )bwahahhaha

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-If you could change one thing in the world, regardless of guilt of politics, what would you do?

the cruel treaties toward animals. and trees. don’t kill nature lah. care for animals. pls…

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-Do you like to dance? i ab-soooo-lute-llllyyy love to dance. ;)

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-George Bush: is an idiot. why? i oso dunno. bah.

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-Imagine your first child is a girl. what would you call her?

desiree. i just adore tht name.

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-Imagine your first child is a boy. what would you call him?

ermm. david bart simpsons.. bwahahha

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-Would you ever consider living abroad?

hmm. i would love to live wit ming lin in melb. she’s leavin there soon. =( i love you girl.

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i tag: - dada foo

-nick yu

-and whoever reads this lah.

...

xoxo- is lost.

i want / need...

first of all... HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY MIN HUI! ;) secondly.. i want..

.new shades.

.pretty slippers/heels. SHOES!

i still want...

- new phone

- cds

- acoustic guitar

- hoods

- sketch books

- ipod

- apple laptop

[there're not tht necessary.. but i just hav the need to want them. but will never get them. lol.]

...

i need...

- new clothes

- shoes

- watch

- chocolate

- new skool bag

- SLEEP!

...

i wanna watch...

- premonition

- the invasion

- hairspray

- knocked up

- rush hour 3

- perfect stranger

- evan almighty

- SECRET

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arh! screw the studies lah. im tired.

the mother actually did a study timetable for me. =.="

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im taking 7 subjects now. not 9. [i hate chemist and physics]

- english

- history

- human biology

- business

- mathematics - accounts

- art & designs ;)

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i think im insomniac. :x

...

i cant seem to sleep well. i hardly sleep at all. everyday sleep at 4 to 6 for weekends. weekdays, sleep at 2 or 3. wake at 7 for skool. come home. sleep for 2 hours. then off to studies and all. i slept only for few hours after stayin up for more than a day or two. i need help. :/ if not. sooner or later.. i'll go BOOM!

i love sleep. but cant seem to get some. =(

...

i miss sean. badly. its been 3 months. and i miss him more each day.

...

xoxo

im not happy.

.solitude and defeat.

cold. so cold. my body and my heart shiver from the cold. i would hav never imagined i'd feel so much! solitude makes me feel a deaf pain tht not even the things in my past can soothe. to lose myself into oblivion and to avoid regretting a fading past tht, with all my being, i'd like to be my present and my future. and whenever other feelings arise, like range, i cannot find peace and i feel defeated. now, if only i could silence the doubts tht crowd my mind. i would dream of losing myself in nothingness. if only, for one more time, i could lose myself in the heaven of your eyes... if only, for the last time, i could lose myself in the warmth of your embrace...

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- i dont believe in fairytales. - i cry at night. because of heartbreak. - i wished he cared more. - i am unreasonable. because of a lost. - im tryin to forgive. but i can never forget. - i lie awake at night thinking about him. - ive showed how much i cared and get nothing back. - i thought he was 'the one'. - i am having a rough time along the way. - i want words to be backed up with actions. - action speaks louder than words. - i fell for all the lies. only to find myself alone in the end. - i gave my heart away to have it shoved back to in my face. - im scared to put my heart out there again. - ive been hurt too many times and badly. - i got my heart broken. he chose tht other girl instead. xoxo

praise & worship

[finally. songs tht i know from the christ songbook. lol.] The power of Your love Lord, I come to You Let my heart be harged, renewed Flowing from the grace That I found in You And Lord I've come to know The weaknesses I see in me Will be stripped away By the power of Your love... *Hold me close, let Your love surround me Bring me near, draw me to Your side And as i wait, I'll rise up like the eagle And i will soar with You Your spirit leads me on In the power of Your love Lord, unveil my eyes Let me see You face to face The knowledge of Your love As You live in me Lord, renew my mind As Your will unfolds in my life In living everday In the power of Your love... Only by grace *Only by grace can we enter Only by grace can we stand Not by our human endeavors But by the blood of the Lamb Into Your presence You draw us You call us to come Into Your presence You draw us And now by Your grace we come Now by Your grace we come Lord, if You mark our transgressions Who would stand? Thanks to Your grace we are saved By the blood of the Lamb ------------------------------------ i know im not a good christian. but am tryin to be one. ;) thanks loads to my loved ones tht's always there... -to console me -to care & love -to be the shoulder -to be different -to tell the truth -to just bein there -to help -to teach for me.. -to listen -to give back -to cry on -to let it out -to be strong -to be there -to give -to learn and to thank. i love you all ;) always & forever *profftt*

high school musical 2.

[sorry for not updatin for quite a few days. the mother thought i was addicted to the comp. so she didnt pay for the internet.] hmphffftt.. she thought i cant scored my exams while i hav fun online-ing. she needed prove. and ive proved!. i got 99 for history! and 90+ something for science! all thanks to the long hours of studies. =.=" [yes. i study] hmm.. so far.. nothing interestin been happenin lately. but i went premiere for the high school musical 2! ive never liked hsm. not even the songs. but i went nyway. just to enjoy myself with callie. [tht was on last saturday, 1st of september.] went for the meet and greet session.. meet jaclyn victor. milan something somthing. vince chong wasnt there. natalie from hitz. fm. and some other anyhoo celebs.. after tht. then to the premiere. got bored. so i smsed some frens. callie went to the loo. she came back and we needed to wait for all the slowmoes to get into the cinema and shut up. waited like 15mins+ till the movie started. frigginshittards! nyway... i take it back! hsm2 was nice! its nothing compare to the first one. hsm2 is better. more erm.. real. lol. i love the break up part. damn nice. [i shall not spoilt by tellin wht happened b4 or after] i love sharpay! she's so good at her role. but she was stereotypin paris hilton. geww. owel.. pictures! [waiting for more hsm2 picts from callie]

my sexxay red nails. bwahaha

tralalala-lala-lalaa

*proffft* ;)