Liquid Jump Up

Liquid Jump Up 2 February @ Bar Blonde featuring AZ-1, Jasmine, Raze & Radzy + MC Reza anyone goin? pls let me know^^ xoxo

take me ; by papa roach

Take me and let me in Don't break me and shut me out [Chorus:] So take me and let me in Don't break me and shut me out I lit my pain on fire And I watched it all burn down Now I'm dancing in the ashes And theres no one else around Cause I wanna be apart of something This is just a story of a broken soul [Hook:] As days go by, my heart grows cold I can't seem to let this all pass me by [Chorus x2] I'm burning in the heavens And I'm drowning in a hell My soul is in a coma And none of my friends can tell That I'm reaching out and getting nothing This is just a story of a broken soul [Hook] [Chorus x2] Don't shut me out Does anyone around me feel the same Put your fist up and vent your pain Does anyone around me feel the same Put your fist up and vent your pain Does anyone around me feel the same Put your fist up and vent your pain Does anyone around me feel the same Put your fist up and vent your pain [Hook] [Chorus x2] [Hook] Take Me Don't Break Me xoxo

you've gotta listen to one of these.

these two are on of Laura Sullivan's music. nice kan? :D xoxo

i can never stop listening to this song && i love GTO! Onisuka rocks :D

Shizuku; Drop 2nd Ending Song of GTO Subete no hito wo aiseru wake ja nainara, semete aisuru hito o Uragi razu ni utagawazu ni, semetari nikundari shinai de Mujaki de irukoto ga, hito o kizutsukete shimau no? Shizukana jounetsu ga hitomi no oku de sawagi dasu... anata ni meguri aete Kobore souna namida no tsubu, nagasazu mune ni tamete Isshun o tsuyoku iki yo, ichizuna shizuku ni natte Junsui na aijou ga, itsu atte dareka o madowa shiteru Akiramenaide inori mashou, sekai ga tatoe kurayami demo Jibun ni hokoreru, tatta hitotsu o mitsuke dasou KOTOBA ni dekinai yume ga ryoute ni afuretemo, dare nimo somaranai yo Hateshinai toki no naka de, jibun no nani ga dekiru Ima wa mada chiisaku demo, kagayaki keseya shinai yo Suidou no KARUKI ga SHINKU no fuchi ni tamatte, sonomama tokesou ni nai Kagaku kankyou mochiron aijou mo, zenbu onaji jigen de kangaeru Nanika hitotsu jibun ni shika dekinai KOTO, mitsuke dasetara Hoka ni wa nanimo iranai desho, sorega saikin wakatte kita desho Ookina gan no youna tokai no sumikko de, nani ka o sukoshi zutsu x3 kaete ikitai Dare ka o honki de shinshoku shitetai Kesa no TEREBI wa tooi dokoka no, nikumi au dare ka o utsushiteta Hateshinai toki no naka de, jibun no nani ga dekiru Ima wa mada chiisaku demo, kagayaki keseya shinai yo Kobore souna namida no tsubu, nagasazu mune ni tamete Isshun o tsuyoku iki yo, ichizuna shizuku ni natte ........................................ english version ; lyircs If you can't love everyone, at least do not Betray, suspect, accuse, or hate the ones you love Does being innocent mean that I will hurt people? A quiet passion begins to stir within my eyes... after meeting you Teardrops are about to fall; I don't let them, holding them within my heart Live each moment to the fullest; become a focused drop Pure love is always leading someone astray Let's pray without giving up, even if the world has turned dark Let's find the one thing that I can be proud to myself about Even if dreams that I cannot put into words fill both of my hands, I won't let myself be affected by anyone What can I do in these neverending times? Even though the spark is faint right now, you can't put it out The tapwater's chlorine deposits have accumulated on the sink's edge and doesn't seem like it'll ever dissolve I think of even the scientific environment and love at the same level If you find the one thing that only you can do, You need nothing else, right? You've come to realize that lately, right? From a corner in the city that's like a huge boulder, I want to change something, little by little by little I want to infiltrate someone for real This morning, the TV was showing people somewhere far away who hated each other What can I do in these neverending times? Even though the spark is faint right now, you can't put it out Teardrops are about to fall; I don't let them, holding them within my heart Live each moment to the fullest; become a focused drop xoxo

Onisuka ; enough said ;p

1st Ending song of GTO Futari de Tooku e ikou Atarashii kimochi Kyou mo sagashi ni Kimi to futari nara Norikoe rareru yo Atarashii ashita Tanoshimitai kara Hitomi wo hiraite Tobira hiraku Me no mae ni hirogaru sekai Soto ni detai oki ni iri no oto wo tsurete Osanai koro no kankaku Ajiwau Aitakute demo aenakute Afureru kimochi tada dakishimete Hitodoori ooi toori aruite ite mo Atama ni mawaru anata no egao Taiyou no hikari Abiru watashi wa koko ni iru yo Kuraberu yori Ima no jibun wo taisetsu ni suru PAZURU no saigo no WAN PIISU Sugu soba ni aru no ni misugoshiteta Sudoorishiteta takusan no yasashisa Ima nara sunao na kimochi agerareru Mimi ni nokoru ano koro futari de kiiteta kyoku Sabishikunai Mou kanashikunai tte koto ni shitoku Hito no nagare Machi wa ukare Kaze ni fukare Karada azuke Itsumo no keshiki Chigatte mieru Tsukutte yuku Watashi no RUURU Watashi ni kakeru KORE ga kikkake nara Ima nara kitto kimi no moto ni sunao ni yukeru Futari kiri de Tooku e ikou Atarashii kimochi Kyou mo sagashi ni Kimi to futari nara Norikoe rareru yo Atarashii ashita Tanoshimitai kara xoxo

credit goes to nicky :]

for letting me listen to this song on your ipod.(。・∀・。) (tho you took it back b4 i could even finish listenin to faber drive's *grins* ) heard it on radio but didnt bother bout it. but when listenin to it's lyrics. it caught my attention and i like it. so got home and went searching for the song. lol Closed off from love I didn’t need the pain Once or twice was enough And it was all in vain Time starts to pass Before you know it you’re frozen But something happened For the very first time with you My heart melted to the ground Found something true And everyone’s looking round Thinking I’m going crazy But I don’t care what they say I’m in love with you They try to pull me away But they don’t know the truth My heart’s crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open Trying hard not to hear But they talk so loud Their piercing sounds fill my ears Try to fill me with doubt Yet I know that the goal Is to keep me from falling But nothing’s greater Than the rest that comes with your embrace And in this world of loneliness I see your face Yet everyone around me Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe But I don’t care what they say I’m in love with you They try to pull me away But they don’t know the truth My heart’s crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open And it’s draining all of me Oh they find it hard to believe I’ll be wearing these scars For everyone to see I don’t care what they say I’m in love with you They try to pull me away But they don’t know the truth My heart’s crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love xoxo

got tagged by shazzy :)

ive done this tag b4, but owels.. im bored x/ List out 5 presents you wish for : 1. chocolate fountain 2. ipod nano (3rd generation) 3. sony ericson phone 4. paramore's album 5. **secret** The person who tagged you is : Shawn Khoo. aka, shazzy ;) 5 impressions of him / her : 1. love stuck ; mhm... 2. emo ; damn right he is. lol 3. funny ; in ways 4. nice ; no? 5. naively smart ; goodness, he got 5 As for pmr. If he/she is your lover, you will : no comment. he's my ex. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be : that he suck[ed]. haha, jkjk.. i dont think it'll happen.. Pass this quiz to 5 people you wish to know how they feel about you : 1. are 2. you 3. fucking 4. serious 5. !?? xoxo

LOVE is.....

just an excuse to get HURT. xoxo

angry ; my wrath for you.

So scream you, out from behind the bitter ache You're hanging on the memory, you need most You still want love. love's ugly, smooth and delicate But not without affection, no not alone And instead of wishing that it would get better Man you're seeing that you just get angrier And it's good that I'm not angry Well I need to get over I'm not angry, anymore Cry when you cry, run when you run Love when you love Represent the ashes That you leave behind And instead of wishing that the road had shoulder Man you're seeing that you're sinking over time And it's good that I'm not angry Well I need to get over I'm not angry It's dragging me under I'm not angry I'm not angry it's never been enough It gets inside and it tears you up I'm not angry but I've never been above it You see through me don't you And it's good that I'm not angry Well I need to get over I'm not angry It's dragging me under I'm not angry And it's good that I'm not angry Well I need to get over I'm not angry, anymore at least, i want to think so... xoxo

omg, this is fucking HILARIOUS!!!

Laughing Girl Japanese Laughing got these vids from Katherine. thanks girl :] i cant believe you thought that 2 girls 1 cup isnt THAT bad. lol xoxo

keee....

enough said. lol.. the truth that you leave thanks bro ;] almost forgot bout this vid at a moment. i love it... ps. kinda miss you^^ xoxo

bent 4 you, i'll always will...

You're unsure and you're not ready so that must mean I want you You're unavailable and disinterested and to you I look for comfort A million times in a million ways I will try to change you A million months and a million days I'll try to somehow convince you I have waited for you and adjusted for you and I'm done I have deferred to you and enabled you and I'm done You're too young or you're too old or you're simply not inclined You're asleep or you're withholding be that my cue to crave you Several times in several ways I'll try to squeeze love from you Several hours and several ways I'll feast on scraps thrown from you I have bent for you and I've deprived for you and I'm done I have depressed for you and contorted for you and I'm done I have stifled for you and I've compromised for you and I'm done I have silenced for you and sacrificed for you and I'm done It. won't be long before I am reclaimed It won't take long and I'll be on path again It won't be easy for us to disengage I'm at the end of self deprivation stage You're afraid of every woman afraid of your inner workings You cringe at the thought of living under the same roof as me god and everything A million times and a million ways I've tried to alter to match you Several times every several days I've tried to uncrush on you i saw you again, after years of waiting. i walked away from your absences. xoxo

Malleus Maleficarum ; i'll wear my scars

Open my eyes as I submerge and I won't deny what I've been since birth. I'll die drowned by your standards. Breathe in the life of the summmer's death as the orange and red breathe their first breath, so welcome as they're burning through. We all begin to burn. Autumn's flame dance's in my eyes Set alight for all we've learned. My ashes falling. My skin is singed but it heals my heart and with glowing pride I'll wear my scars. I'm honored by your hatred. Leaves fall we arise again, and the end impending, it will begin. So welcome as it's burning through. Ashes fall and I'm rising up again. Ashes fall. Ashes fall. Ashes fall as we all arise. xoxo

Unprodigal Daughter

I had disengaged to avoid being totaled I would run away and say good riddance, soon enough I had grown disgusted by your small-minded ceiling Imagine myself bolting had not been difficult Soon be my life Soon be my pace Soon be my choice of which you'll have no part of Unprodigial daughter and I'm heading for the west Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last I'd invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed I hit the ground running, although I know not what toward I hit the town feeling, forgetting all that came before I felt primed and ready, once surrounded by the pawns I felt culture shocked, but dissuaded, I was not This is my town This is my voice This is my taste of which you've have no part of Unprodigial daughter and I'm heading for the west Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last I'd invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed One day I'll saddle back and speak of foreign adventures One day I'll double back and tell you about these unfettered years One day I'll look back and feel something other than relieved Glad that I left when I did before, I know you, you can't get the best of me When I'd speak of artistry you would roll your eyes skyward When I'd speak of spirituality you would label it absurd When I spoke of possibility you would frown and shake your head If I had stayed much longer, I'd have surely imploded These are my words This is my house These are my friends of which you've had no part Unprodigial daughter and I'm heading for the west Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last I'd invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed Unprodigial daughter and I'm heading for the west Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last I'd invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed forever i'll have anger. and never will i forgive you. xoxo

oh mother ; i thank you

Whoa, oh, yeah, She was so young with such innocent eyes She always dreamt of a fairytale life And all the things that your money can't buy She thought that he was a wonderful guy Then suddenly, things seemed to change It was the moment she took on his name He took his anger out on her face She kept all of her pain locked away Oh mother, we're stronger From all of the tears you have shed Oh mother, don't look back Cause he'll never hurt us again So mother, I thank you For all that you've done and still do You got me, I got you Together we always pull through We always pull through We always pull through Oh mother, oh mother, oh mother It was the day that he turned on his kids That she knew she just had to leave him So many voices inside of her head Saying over and over and over, "You deserve much more than this." She was so sick of believing the lies and trying to hide Covering the cuts and bruises (cuts and bruises) So tired of defending her life, she could have died Fighting for the lives of her children Oh mother, we're stronger From all of the tears you have shed (all of the tears you have shed) Oh mother, don't look back Cause he'll never hurt us again (he'll never hurt us again) So mother, I thank you (thank you) For all that you've done and still do (still do) You got me, I got you, (yeah you got me and I got you) Together we always pull through. We always pull through We always pull through Oh mother, oh mother, oh mother All of your life you have spent Burying hurt and regret But mama, he'll never touch us again For everytime he tried to break you down Just remember who's still around It's over, and we're stronger And we'll never have to go back again Oh mother, we're stronger From all of the tears you have shed Oh mother, don't look back (oh mother don't look back again) Cause he'll never hurt us again (cause he'll never hurt us again) So mother, I thank you (and I thank you for everything you've done) For all that you've done and still do (together we always move on) You got me, I got you, (you got me, I got you) Together we always pull through (always pull through) We always pull through We always pull through I love you mom xoxo

tell me now...

I know it's all over, but I think of you and all that we had Thought we were forever, but I'm missing you It makes me feel bad Sometimes in love you know you'll make it Then someone comes along at night and takes it. Was it for real, or did we fake it? I ask myself and I don't know so Tell me now-, is it me you're looking for and Tell me now-, is it true she loves you more I felt so lonely and I have to say The world fell apart I watched you coldly, but when you left today, It rained in my heart Maybe in time I will forgive you Tell me the truth I might believe you I might be a fool, but I still want you Are you for real, I don't know so Tell me now-, is it me you're looking for and Tell me now-, is it true she loves you more You were the one that was meant for me My lover my life my destiny, but it's over now And it's all because of you All of the things we were meant to do Till we were old but nothings new Coz it's over now and it's all because of you. Maybe in time I will forgive you Tell me the truth I might believe you I might be a fool, but I still want you Are you for real, I don't know so Tell me now-, is it me you're looking for and Tell me now-, is it true she loves you more You were the one that was meant for me My lover my life my destiny, but it's over now And it's all because of you All of the things we were meant to do Till we were old but nothings new Coz it's over now and it's all because of you. song by bellefire xoxo

fear of bliss ; fear is an obstruction

My misery has enjoyed company And although I have ached I don't threaten anybody Sometimes I feel more bigness than I've shared with you Sometimes I wonder why I quell when I'm not required to I've tried to be small I've tried to be stunted I've tried roadblocks and all My happy endings prevented Sometimes I feel it's all just too big to be true I sabotage myself for fear of what my bigness could do Fear of bliss and fear of joyitude Fear of bigness (and ensuing solitude?) I could be golden I could be glowing I could be freedom But that could be boring Sometimes I feel this is too scary to be true I sabotage myself for fear of losing you Fear of bliss and fear of joyitude Fear of bigness (and ensuing solitude?) This talk of liberation makes me want to go lie down Under the covers til the terror of the unknown is gone I could be full I could be thriving I could be shining Sounds isolating Sometimes I feel this is too good to be true I sabotage myself for fear of what my joy could do Fear of bliss and fear of joyitude Fear of bigness (and ensuing solitude?) xoxo

on my own``

Why do I feel it's all up to me to see that everything's right and it's how it should be Why don't they just leave me alone I've got to prove I can Little girl with stars in her eyes they've got her all figured out and there's nowhere to hide why can't they all see who I am when will they understand It may take some time they don't know how it feels because they can't read my mind They always say I'm too young and they feel they should help me But I can make it all alone out here on my own Every day I feel so in demand and all I wish I could find is a place I can land One day I'll feel comfort inside cause I'll know who I am I can hold the line if I know in the end that I won't be left behind I don't regret what I've done I don't think you can blame me Now I'm standin' all alone out here on my own I'm not thinking 'bout leavin' home But I need to be on my own Doesn't mean I have a heart of stone I won't even ask them why I can't ever let them see me cry Here I'm standing all alone out here on my own... out here on my own Feeling lost in a world full of lies I can't help thinkin' that love is just passin' me by Hold on to what I believe and keep an open hand Can I have it all if there's no one to turn to when I stumble and fall Is there a secret I need because no one has told me-all alone It may take some time cause I know how it feels to have a lot on your mind I'll never feel all alone cause! Know that I have me Now I can make it all alone out here on my own written by Alanis Morissette xoxo

abso-fucking- awesome!

this is... true. lmao
the meanning of FUCK YOU, aka. the 'f word' hahahaha xD thanks nicky! xoxo

i will be...

Mmm... The world seems so cold When I face so much all alone A little scared to move on And knowing how fast I have grown And I wonder just where I fit in Oh the vision of life in my head Oh yes I will be Strong on my own I will see through the rain I will find my way I will keep on Traveling this road Till I finally reach my dream Till I'm living, and I'm breathing My destiny, yeah yeah I can't let go now Even when darkness surrounds But if I hold on, yeah I will show the world All the things that you never expected to see From little old me, this Pittsburgh girl And I wonder just where my place is Close my eyes and I remind myself this Oh yeah yeah I will be Strong on my own I will see through the rain I will find my way I will keep on Traveling this road Till I finally reach my dream Till I'm living, and I'm breathing My destiny, ohh It comforts me Ooh it keeps me Alive each day of my life Always guiding me Providing me With the hope I desperately need Well I gotta believe There's something out there meant for me Oh I get on my knees Praying I will receive The courage to grow and the faith to know That I will be Strong on my own I will see through the rain I will find my way I will keep on Traveling this road Till I finally reach my dream Till I'm living, and I'm breathing My destiny singer: christina aguilera xoxo

D . A . N . C . E

Dancing is my passion but ive stopped for awhile now, not sure why.dancing soothes my soul, it illustrates me with music. i miss D . A . N . C . E xoxo

oh am gee...

sorry, cant think of any better title at this very moment. im starting to hate my blog. where's the font, the size, colors, aligns? all gone. except the bold and italic fonts. blah. and i have to deal with the html codes to get this right here. but having the colors. goodness, do you know how long it'll take me to do tht? geez... xoxo

my dearest JEENNIE :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOUR HIGHNESS :D you're FINALLY SIXTEEN!! okies, her name's NG JEEN PEI. my sweetness twin sister. apparently, i call her JEENNIE [used to it] lol. and apparently, im the evil twin. *grins* my bestie tht i adore to tease, sometimes. someone who i cry my troubles to. someone who's been there for me. and always to listen to my oh-so-sucky-love-life. haha we're so different, and yet very alike :D ive known her since i was 9 goin on to 10. used to go over her house all the time. that was before.... i moved skool again ._____. and now, we're so busy to even see each other. wells, she is.. wait, on my bday? hehe but you should know, JEENIE here... is a lovable princess and she rocks my socks! enough said :D AND, almost forgot. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEFFREY PIONG. xoxo

its too late to apologisze``

mhm.. maybe.. it depends? ps. something's wrong with my blog. cant post anything properly. xoxo

alvin and the chipmunks :) oh so adorable!

aint they just oh so adorable? :D xoxo

PARAMORE LYRICS 2

"Misery Business" I'm in the business of misery, Let's take it from the top. She's got a body like an hourglass that's ticking like a clock. It's a matter of time before we all run out, When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth. I waited eight long months, She finally set him free. I told him I couldn't lie he was the only one for me. Two weeks and we had caught on fire, She's got it out for me, But I wear the biggest smile. [Chorus:] Whoa, I never meant to brag But, I got him where I want him now. Whoa, it was never my intention to brag To steal it all away from you now. But god does it feel so good, Cause I got him where I want him now. And if you could then you know you would. Cause god it just feels so... It just feels so good. Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change. What's a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change. And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged. I'm sorry honey, but I passed it up, now look this way. Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you. Looking as innocent as possible to get to who, They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right. Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse! Whoa, I never meant to brag But, I got him where I want him now. Whoa, it was never my intention to brag To steal it all away from you now. But god does it feel so good, Cause I got him where I want him right now. And if you could then you know you would. Cause god it just feels so... It just feels so good. I watched his wildest dreams come true Not one of them involving you Just watch my wildest dreams come true Not one of them involving. Whoa, I never meant to brag, But I got him where I want him now. Whoa, I never meant to brag But I got him where I want him now. Whoa, it was never my intention to brag To steal it all away from you now. But god does it feel so good, Cause I got him where I want him now. And if you could then you know you would. Cause god it just feels so... It just feels so good. xoxo

PARAMORE LYRICS

"Pressure" Tell me where our time went And if it was time well spent Just don't let me fall asleep Feeling empty again Cause I fear I might break and I fear I can't take it Tonight I'll lie awake feeling empty I can feel the pressure It's getting closer now We're better off without you I can feel the pressure It's getting closer now We're better off without you Now that I'm losing hope And there's nothing else to show For all of the days that we spent Carried away from home Some things I'll never know And I had to let them go I'm sitting all alone feeling empty I can feel the pressure It's getting closer now We're better off without you I can feel the pressure It's getting closer now We're better off without you Without you Some things I'll never know And I had to let them go Some things I'll never know And I had to let them go I'm sitting all alone feeling empty I can feel the pressure It's getting closer now We're better off without you Feel the pressure It's getting closer now You're better off without me XOXO

cause imma gummi bear ; yes imma gummi bear :D

WATCH THIS! Oh I'm a gummy bear Yes I'm a gummy bear oh Im a yummy jummy funny lucky gummy bear oh Im a jolly bear cause Im a gummy bear oh Im a movin groovin jammin singin gummy bear oh yeah! ba ba duba duba duba yum yum ba ba duba duba duba yum yum ba ba duba duba duba yum yum three times you can bite me gummy gummy gummy gummy gummy bear xoxo

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

goodbye year 2007 . hello 2008!!! :D im lifelss . im now sitting in front of the laptop drinking . mom allowed this time :P wells, its to celebrate something real important for this year . mhm? and yes, its me and my alcohol . lmao have a lovely 2008 all . xoxo