Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Jinnikins , my one and only

listening to :
Love Story by Taylor Swift


HAPPY
SENSATIONAL 7TEEN
BIRTHDAY
SWEETHEART!! ;D



she's my jinnikins xD


thats her in the middle . aint she prettyyy?


we used to be the closest fren, ever .

she was my girlfren (: someone who i could always talk to, regardless of what others may think . she was my shoulder to cry on, she was there when i lost Ben . almost anything that has happened, she was there .
she's someone who shares the same taste in clothes, food, drinks, movies, GUYS, the colur purple, and so on and so on..
the drummer girl who also used to sit next to me , but had to move to the other direction D: sorry that i made a big fuss bout it to the teachers .

many months ago, even tho we see each other every weekday in skewl, we'll still meet each other EVERY saturday without fail . tho we supposedly have plans with other frens, we either rain check the plans or whatever . cause sat was like our date, date . get it? lol


till disaster strike D:
that would be the drug episode..


we werent allowed to see each other, its like a bad break up . ( im sorry i costed you so much trouble! ) and tho we're now allowed to hang out again, we hardly have the time .
i know she misses me cause i miss her terribly too :O
whatever fuck happened, you'll always be a fren that ill always rmbr..
youre my one and only Jinnikins (:
you left footprints in my heart! (:


hope you have a sensational 7teen birthday !!
and may all your wishes come true!




xoxo

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

my life ..

listening to :
Head Over Feet by Alanis Morissette


My life.



why do i worry?
why do i stress?
why has my life become a total mess?
why aren't i happy?
why aren't i free?
why cant my life be how i want it to be?
why do i bother?
why do i try?
it all ends in failure
and thats why i cry ..




xoxo

Thursday, December 4, 2008

i am trusting for the first time, in a long time

listening to :
Out Of Phase by Sugarcult




baby, to love you will be my joy and my pleasure
to love you will be my armor against the world
to love you will be one of the good things in my life
you make me feel alive again
it will be my pleasure, to love you




xoxo

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

youre the only thing that make senses to me

listening to :
Lucky by Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat




yeah.. it is you i fell for
it is you whom i so much adore


it is your every word that makes my heart go glad
it is your absence that makes me so sad


it is your every act that is so sweet
it is your smile that makes my heart skip a beat


boy, im in love with you ♥




xoxo

new layout, yet again

listening to :
Hot 'n' Cold by Katy Perry


you like? ;D
i made this layout myself..
(click on the picts for a bigger view)

first thought of butterflies, and that adorable ladybug .
then that uberly weird picture .

gotta have A7X !!!

butterflies! :)

scribbles..

more and more BUTTERFLIES ! oh, and BLINGS!
bwahahhaha xD




xoxo

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

another cut, a lost of luck

listening to :
I Dont Like The Drugs, But The Drugs Like me by Marilyn Manson


how can i forget you?
if the only love i know is you
how can i move on?
if life is not the same without you




it doesnt hurt when i talk to you
it hurts when you dont talk to me


it doesnt hurt when i tell you iloveyou
it hurts when you keep forgetting about it


it doesnt hurt when i worry about you
it hurts when you tell me not to


it doesnt hurt you being my friend
it hurt me being yours..



xoxo

Monday, December 1, 2008

its been awhile..



I can feel the chill go down my spine
Amazing i do this every time
It’s hard to forget the things ive been through
You’d want to die too if you only knew
The things i feel
Seem so unreal
Sometimes i feel i may never heal
I know i tend to miss the signs
It’s just hard for me to unwind
When i get to having an obsession
It doesnt help with my depression
I guess im checking in for another session
Sick of the drugs
But i never got hugs
So ive learned to deal with the mean mugs
Some say they get it
When was your last hit?
Just look at my wrist you can see they’ve been slit
I know i talk too much
It’s because im out of touch
I guess ill never feel free
It’s just the way i accept it to be
I dont expect anyone to love me




xoxo

where ive been?

listening to :

Love is Gone (Joachim Garraud & Fred Rister Remix) by David Guetta



and so i got this job for 3 days, to promote the face product Olay from 10am till 10pm for rm 100 a day .
i tell you, damn tiring!
mostly i was hoping for the time to pass by so i could go back home..
so..


1st day of work, friday

b4 working, went to starbucks! xD its been so long..
working was okay . i had fun working with Ashley, and tho we were supposed to have our breaks seperately. we didnt . instead during our last break, we went for a lil shopping ard the place, got ourselves a small treat and such . talking bout makes up and all . lols
met a few ppl while working/ having break ; Yun Xin, Yen Hao, Matthew, Adi, Ilyas and Jin Yin's mom xD
after work, starbucks with Daniel and Ashley . when i got home, went to Rasta and shisha-ed with Edwin and David .



2nd day of work, saturday

starbucks in the morning again..
got a new colleague, Shi Min, shes okay i guess.. that day, it was quite a busy for us . alot more ppl came and bought the Olay product . and even more, there was this malay guy who came and stole two Olay eye cream . one's worth rm69.69 . he stole two, and he got caught (:

went for late lunch during my break with Daniel . supposely i were to belanja him makan, we ate in secret recipe, but he paid even b4 i could take my money out . so yea, thats the time i 'accidentally took' his rm200 xD then went to starbucks later on, i paid with Daniel's money . all the while, he's been so blur, he didnt realised that his money was with me . tsk.. after i got back to work, and hours later, Daniel called . he wants his money back xD

" hey Daniel, i really didnt steal your money kay . i ' ACCIDENTALLY TOOK' your money . "

Lol.. so now i owe him a hot gf -__- and Ivan was there, he was damn funny being a fool playing with the toys, girls clothes and pads xD after work, went to starbucks with Daniel again xD ( to return his money ) an hour later, got back home, and Carmen was adi in my hse ._.



3rd day of work, Sunday

no starbucks in the morning =(
during my first break.. no, it wasnt to starbucks . instead i went to the game center and wasted my time there playing racing cars xD i didnt like working that day, soo damn little customers . saw my babe Vivian! :) soon after, got a msg from David saying that he couldnt fetch me back home from work . sms-ed a few ppl, all no reply . then Alex called, he said he might be fetching me back, or so . then Daniel smsed me .


this is what happened when you sms a few ppl and then almost by the end of the day, most of them reply :/ so, i had to decide who to fetch me back . in the end, i decided that Daniel should fetch me back, since he was gonna come by kota anyway . i smsed back to the others saying that ive got transport . later then, Jason Voon called me, saying that he wants me to teman him after work . so i thought, sure, ive not seen him for so long (one month long ;p) and yesh, i missed that bugger (: when Daniel came, i told him to drop me off at Jason's condo . to be noted, I LOVE DANIEL's CAR! okay, not his car, but all his soft toys in his car . ive got the same ones too! lmao (x

after he dropped me off at Jason's condo, i went to the park to find Jason, saw him lying on the slide -__- soon, went into his room, all the memories came flooded back into my mind . nothing's changed, and i still love the view from his window . all the lights! :D after that, we had a talk . never in my life have i felt so much emotion in a day, it felt good . it was real nice spending time with him, i had fun cause he was being such a kid . so b4 i got back home, we went for a lil drifting for a very short while xD hmm.. why issit that everytime im out with Jason, i get myself grounded by the woman .

sighs, she hates him adi . but whyyyyyy?! :(



p.s., rmbr what you promised me . im trusting you .

plus, you owe me a day in the theme park xD




xoxo

just a glimpse; with you ard, i feel alive

will edit this post soon.. now's its just mixed up



im happy . and im really heart broken, but im smiling .


ive no idea why .


its been so long since ive been this alive .
its a like a sparkle . a glimpse of something, where no words can say .


im not sure if i can ever love again
but i do hope you'll have hope someday
i appreciate for all you are and how you are to me
i appreciate your honesty
i love your smile
and the way you say my name
i fucking miss your hugs..
i love the way you look at me
and how you were such a kid
you bought a piece of happiness back into my life
i thought, i thought ive lost you
but i was wrong..
you were there all along
and tho i cant be with you
i'll wait..
and if i lose hope
at least you'll still be there
youll always be a part of me
a part where i can look back and smile
ill always love you



xoxo