once again .

im so sorry . i have no idea when i'll be able to come back online .
its either i pay rm 20 for friggin 10 mins to my rascals [bros] or whatsoever . heh
my laptop spoiled . therefore , it'll be - some time - till i get back .

im been busy much .
yesh , ive been studyin . theres nothing more to do . i think .
but yeah, exams on the way .

theres so much i wanna type down , but i dont have the time .
thanks yuin for scaring that scam bag . hahaha .
would love to hear more bout it someday soon .
tho i think ive seen her before . so, when i visit my fren in bu4 one day .
i'll find her and slap her for the both of us, especially for you . cause she deserves it . :D
and btw, love your posts .

lastly , keeeweii korr . i miss you . and ill post up your pictures soon kay .

and, right now .
i cant think . my brain's not malfunctioning properly atm . so whateverlah .



xoxo

hey people

for those who dont know . .

ive got another blog .
had it since last june or something . so yea , if youre ever bored . browse it if you want .
or better yet , dont . it'll bore you even more .
its just filled with poems and such . nothing much . but owels .


break apart my heart



xoxo

one step forward ; two steps back

" dead in her mind and cold to the bone ,
she opened her eyes and saw she was alone . "

xoxo

what`s goin on ?

my heart hurts .


i cant breathe properly .



xoxo

you were my greatest failure

by Sugarcult

Everybody's watching you
Breathing in your every move
Look around when the world is empty
Look around if you're guilty


Everybody's after you
I wait in line to touch you
Look around if you ever miss me
Look because it kills me


[ Chorus ]
It's over
There's nothing you can do
There's nothing you can say
To keep me here
It's over
You say we're just friends
We're playin pretend to keep me here


Every night I lay in bed
I think about the things you said
Look around, I'm the one, your only
Look around it still kills me


[ Chorus ]


It's over, To keep me here [ 4 times ]


Doesn't anyone care? [ 4 times ]


Everybody's watching you and counting down your every move
Look around when your heartbeat's empty
Look around if it's guilty


It's over
You say we're just friends
We're playin pretend to keep me here
It's over
There's nothing you can do
There's nothing you can say
To keep me here
It's over
You say we're just friends
It's almost the end
I'm outta here
It's over
I'm outta here

fuck you bitch !

i hate her . i cant stand her . all she wants to do is to get me into more trouble than i am already in . fine , called my mom and tell her bout my sleeping pills . so what ? she thinks that i'll go to skewl feeling all happy for her ? proud that im finally putting my mind on studyin ? or so she thinks .. always checkin up on me like im such a criminal . what , did i kill someone ? idiot . i cant even go to the toilet for more than 2 friggin minutes !! what is her problem ! always complaining tht i dont do my work . bitch , since when ?!! havent you noticed my grades ? asshole . i sleep in class ? who friggin doesnt ?!! after piles of work , dont we get to rest for a lil bit ? no .. she wouldnt allow . sayin GOD wouldnt like these kind of attitude . i dont believe in christianity anymore ! [ for those who are christians and is reading this , dont mind me , god would probably want you to stay out of other's ppl problem ] shesanolifefriggindogweedohimsorrythatyourhusbanddoesntloveyou ! i know she`s afraid of me , im the only student who told it off to her fagged face . you know what . i'll be less a bitch to her if she could just leave me alone ! or the rest of my frens as well . if this doesnt please her , why doesnt she ... do me a favor ? pretty please ? i dont think it'll be such a problem to her right ? if she cant stand such a rebellious / notorious student such as myself . why doesnt she just expel me ? she`s a friggin two-faced bitch ?!! i swear to whoever the fuck is , if she continues this . i will slap her . and sue her for sakes . she blacklisted my frens and i just so she can get what she wants ? what the hell ! there's nothing for her ! what the fuck does she want from me ? oh my dear , i dont think she knows that action speaks louder than words . fucktard . thinkin anyone likes her ? well , i aint gonna talk bout her daughter , i couldnt care less bout her . complained sayin that i like borrowing my ipod ? cant listen to heavy metal ? cant share drinks or food ?! i think she mistaken of some thing . sharing is caring . she took everything i ever liked in skewl . its a wonder why she`s the only one who we hate . you know what . i dont care anymore , at this point and time , this all aint worthy of my time . why should i waste my precious time on her ? fuck this life .

omfg . this is so cute !

thanks Diana ;D
these are adorable . heh

[ all these cute lil animals , follows your mouse . lol ]



[this is so cute ! move your mouse ard them ]


[ you can click on the turtle , spin it in circles and when you let it go , it'll spin for awhile . *evil laugh* oh, give em` food by clickin the screen ! ]


[ i love this the most ! click on the screen , feed the fish as much as you can and it`ll never die . lol ]


[click on the screen , see what`ll happen ]


lols .. i m bored , dont mind me . heh ;D



xoxo

i only hurt me

thoughts
racing through
my mind


i try so hard
to keep control
inside


it`s not working
anymore
people can see


everything`s
always
agitating me


cant concentrate
on
anything


i feel myself
withdrawing
everyday

xoxo

for you ..

jealousy , misery , suffering ,
you've got everything .
razors , flame , pills and cocaine ,
you need the comfort of the pain .

you make up for never present hope and lost dreams
with self inflicted agony
you accept this misplaced blame ,
bitterly fulfilled by undeserved shame .

so many vain attempts to flee have finally made you see
you cant run from a memory
you`ll never get away
you cant make it go away
so take it , take it to your grave

xoxo

s . e . a . n

you were sick that day ,
but you made me smile :D

i`ll always love you .

you were always there for me .
youre the only one who could understand .

melissa`s doin fine . just so you know .

you saved me life


sean wong wei kenn


happy 19th birthday


i miss you .


R.I.P
1989 - 2007


i dont see you anymore ,
but i still feel you around .


you`ve never failed me,
you were always there .
memories of you will be remembered for eternity .


the day you died , i lost my soul .


now you`re gone , gone forever .
i should have seen it coming ,
i should have known it all .


im missing you every moment .
im vulnerable without you .


there is no one ,
who understands .
no one to save me ,
but you .


you`ve saved my life and i blame myself .


angels may have you now ,
but someday soon ,
they'll have me too .
wait for me ...


i love you

xoxo